sixuan(:

2010-04-04T01:09:00.001+08:00

HI!
ive changed my blog.
now blogging at tumblr.
http://eirela-v-alerie.tumblr.com/

relink me if need to. :)

2010-03-30T03:00:00.001+08:00

the blogging mood is here.
at this time of the day.
isnt it a good start?
hahaha.

been missing for 21days! :D
3weeks. many happened.

had my birthday celebration since the 4th March.
ive stopped blogging on the 8th March.

9th March.
steamboat at my house.
4lovely girls travelled from jurong and bukit panjang.
all the way to Sengkang, Rivervale.
they had a taste of that long journey. :D
my second birthday cake. :)

10th March.
SPCO.
however i didnt stay for full orchestral practice.

11th March.
my birthday. :)
0000, LOVES visited my house.
lucky that they didnt post the video.
broke into my house and my bedroom when im all ready to sleep!
argh!! super unglam.
my sleeping posture. lol.
and my hair is in a mess.
covered myself w my blanket while making my birthday wishes.
hahaha.
10people came! honoured. :D

IT Fair.
work sucks.
the fair sucks more. :(
however, i made lots of friends.

15th March.
went RP.
my brother's school.
bought his laptops and went to sign his iphone.

16th March.
movie w Samson and Sukchun.
those two were bored at home!
movie on book on eli. -.-
i nearly fell asleep.

17th March.
IT Fair is really sucky.
my voice is gone. lol.
and defnitely thanks to all the heaty stuffs i ate. :D

18th March.
pizza w LOVEs.
then mahjong at Caroline's house.

21th March.
i signed my iphone. :D
went dinner w grandparents and aunt.
grandma still sad about the loss of my small aunt.
i miss her too.

22th March.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MENGLIANG. :)))

23th March.
movie with samson and sukchun again.
alice in the wonderland, 2d.
better than the 3d.
cause 3d the colouring not as sharp.

24th March.
released of results. :(
i did badly. droped terribly.
got to work hard.
missed CO again.
vomited a few times.
thanks to my headache.
didnt ate at all that day. :(

27th March.
Picnic w LOVEs.
at archorvale cc that field.
fly kite! though i didnt really try.
chatted till 2300.
everyone's there, including boyfs.
had educational session too! lol.

28th March.
Shopping! :DD
saw my aunt and family there.
missed them. lost contact since i was secondary3.
didnt said hi. cause the relationship was rather tense till now.
my cousin grown up a lot.
taller and speak well!
visited grandaunt.
she was admitted to the hospital cause her leg causing some problems.
she's okay now.
home today with my uncle. :)

sorry for the mess.
couldnt load photos in. :(

2010-03-29T17:14:00.001+08:00

This is my blog.

And it's dead.

byeeeeee!

(just for a period of time)

2010-03-08T00:45:00.001+08:00

Birthday Celebration
with SPCO.
had a performances in the afternoon.
for the down syndrom children.
how fortunate i am, i realized that now.
after performances, we had some activities for the children.
dinner at NewYork NewYork in the evening.
supposed to have swensens but it's packed.
therefore, we had NYNY.
surprised celebration for me and Ruixiang.
Ice-cream! cause NYNY dont sell cakes.
had fun. :)

Thanks so much everyone.

Ruiping, Thanks a lot for planning. :)

Denise

Weishan

JiaJia

Yishan

Ziyi

Chris

Kingchi

Vick

Mervyn

Ekjun

Ruixiang, Birthday Boy.

Crazy Time In MRT.

Sorry for the blur photos.

i guess i need a new cam.

2010-03-07T00:50:00.000+08:00

Gym
on Wednesday.
met 5in1 for food hunt in the afternoon.
went JP for gym.
jelly after all the exercise.
will make this our 1st gym session.
more will come in days. :D

Kbox
on Thursday.
met LOVEs in the afternoon.
under the SUPER hot sun.
hate it, i am wearing jeans still.
reached Katong in about 30mins-45mins.
singing sessions. :D
after singing, had photo taking sessions.
yup, with a pink gaint birthday card for me.
dinner at parkway parade.

2010-03-02T01:38:00.006+08:00

Had a feeling of closing my blog.

Recent Happenings.

Caroline's Grace's Birthday

NewYork NewYork.

Game Masters.

Lots of thanks to them. Without them, the celebration wont happen. :)

Game Clues.

Arrival of Mag.

Caroline.T

KBOX

Group photo.

Yveline!!

Christine!!

Wanqii!!

There's also steamboat and Valentine's gift exchange.

at Yveline's.

Last Paper!! :)

home late, cabbed home in the end.

nearly cost me a bomb.

however, i was home before midnight charge. :D

learnt my lesson.

however, we had heart-to-heart talk.

which is something memorial.

commented on each other's weaknesses and strengths. :D

Work at Clarke Quay, Riverside.

from thursday to Sunday, 24/02-28/02.

work along the riverside is something new.

doing surveying which is tiring.

i swear, i wont do surveying job again.

sweat while working. :(

and we had to be properly dressed.

but it's kinda romantic at night.

seeing couples and friends gathered.

people playing G-Max and G-5.

wanna give it a try somedays. :D

Baking session at Sukchun's.

rather successful.

but the appearance rather sucky. lol.

and we had mahjong.

i played, amazgingly.

cabbed home. :)

Anw, the blogging thing.

im considering. should i like close the blog?

rather lazy to really blog now.

everyone's not updating much.

i rather stick to written journals.

and im rather busy with books.

borrowed 4crime books before the last paper.

bad, i know. i finished 2.

hopefully, i managed to finish it before the deadline.

and i think i am getting sick.

reading how author wrote about murdering, sex and blah blah.

i find it interesting.

like seriously, ive considered in becoming a FBI. lol?

i know, crapped.

the world will be less safe. lol.

Chinese New Year.

Waiting, Waiting and Waiting..

Birthdays.

Happy Birthday Bingyuan.

20/02.

Happy Birthday Grace.

21/02.

Happy Birthday Huixuan.

26/02.

sorry to post now as i was lazy, busy, tired. :D

2010-02-18T00:56:00.005+08:00

blog hopping at 0045.

cant sleep, though i am tired and hungry. :S
cant be bothered with anything now.
no mood. NOT PMS. lol.

everyone's owing me money now.
i am broke. like soon.
returned money.
now ppl are owing me. Argh.
i hate it. :(

borrowers, please return me asap k.
i am like completely broke,
though i dont usually chase people for money.

supposed to have kbox with family.
movie with family.
in the end, none is done.
was rather looking forward to family time.
but it's not coming true.

friend time.
none seems to be completed too.
steamboat session was kinda bad.
the attendances.
all becos' of EXAMs.
:( Disappointed.

Year1 ending soon.
heading to year2.
not looking forward.
not in a looking forward to things feeling now.
:( angry with myself for nothing now. lol.

i hope to have unlimited time forever.
i hope to have a time machine.
i hope to have happiness everyday.
i hope to have good health.
i hope to be a happy girl.

i am going for body checkup soon.
my health is kinda deteriorating.
my shoulder and spine.
it just hurts when i sit and stand.
if i die, i hope everyone will be happy always. :)

had a horrible nightmare this morning.
perhaps this is the reason why i do not want to sleep.
had a nightmare on, the ferris wheel collapse,
causing a huge, super huge wave in Singapore.
everyone's drowning.
i was running for my life.
saved my mom's.
went to a temporary safe place.
dad bro grandparents there.
happy to see them.
however, the worst was coming.
we have to close the windows, find food, find clothes.
for survival sake. sealing all the windows to the max. tightness.
in the dream, i was super sad.
cause somehow i lost lots of loved ones.
and was like losing my family too.
in the end, when the wave is about to come..
woke up, cried.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CAROLINE.T!

My wishes for you is written down.

shall not post.

you will take a look at it yourself on Friday.

look forward to it!

spent some time to plan. :D

cherish before it's lost forever.

2010-02-15T00:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR.
Roarrrr! :D

grandma's house.
ahma's house.
2nd grandaunt's house.
1st grandaunt's house.

all my red packets collected. :D
my mother said we've grown up.
so our red packets had got more $$$.

hahaha. rather zi lian.

thanks to christine.

now i am infected with zi lian disease.

my irritating brother didnt want to take photo w me.

so no handsome guy in my post today. :D

everyone's saying my brother is handsome, yucks.

ohya,

happy valentine. :)

wish everyone happy.

singles, find your happiness soon.

attached, happy loving always with honeys.

GOH EGGKJUN, Happy Birthday.

currently, i only managed to find this nice photo of him.

short guy, grow taller this year k. :)

happy 19th birthday!

2010-02-13T15:37:00.001+08:00

TEST OVER OVER OVER!
finally, after days of mugging.
all down, left one exam paper.

im gotta missed my classmates. :(
dont missed my noisness. :D
heading to year2 soon.
thinking back, time passed super fast.
it's like a month ago that i first met my classmates.

missed SPCO gang too.
missed lots of sessions.
missed loves too!
super-duperly!

not gotta blog much.
going for reunion dinner. :)

i still like him,
very much.

2010-02-08T01:17:00.000+08:00

Blogging again.
just realized my last post was posted on Monday.

been rather busy.
studying again.
seems like i never will stop till the end of this week.
super looking forward to Chinese New Year.

Monday.

we were rather bored, waiting.

Christine said it's cute! :D

Tuesday.
dd lesson. it's kinda waste of time.
us, doing our own work.
had my own room designed.
not very nice. thats why i didnt take a picture of it. :D

Wednesday.
GEMs. last lecture.
had presentation.
before that, we had pizza!
which is super bad.
cause the baked rice looked like biscutes than rice.
dont order curry zazzle from SP pizza hut k. lol.
presentation was kinda, successful?
we only managed run through a few times.

Thursday.
No BS lecture.
Mr Yeo didnt tell us! he did it on purpose. lol.
we thought we had tutorials. in the end,
he said: "you should know that after all lecture ends, it's optional lectures"
whereby, he always will tell us!
we still loved him. :D
ECT was kinda weird. Mr Tan was friendly.
actually, he isnt that bad. just that we're biased.
we are sorry. :(

Friday.
overslept!
guess i was too tired.
no lecture. had revision instead for ECT.
Tips. :D
after lecture chewping wanqi me went for bull frog lunch. :D
met yveline christine at jp library to study.
harry potter at night!

Saturday.
walked here and there, finally we went to woodlands library to study.
booked project room.
in the end, left me and wanqi.
christine left early. chewping couldnt make it.
so do yveline. :(
producive things was done. :D

Sunday.
met wanqi and chewping to study.
but was kinda super late when we met.
had revision with wanqi's friend.
taught us some things.
was kinda grateful. :)
SP SE's concert at night, NAFA.
met SPCO gang at Bugis.
been long since i met them.
super sorry for being unpresent.
but i guess, it doesnt really matter much.
i dont talk much.
home at 10.30pm.

the fact is.

2010-02-02T21:59:00.002+08:00

So, Not over it.

2010-02-01T21:49:00.000+08:00

Loves <33333
sweetness in the air.
thanks to this group of girls. :)

Saturday.
Shopping at Bugis.
Again. i am super sick of the place now.
went to change my pant size to L.
i am still as skinny. dont worry. :D
Movie at E!Hub, the spy next door.
yveline: "i want to watch spy kids" (*cute*)
Class BBQ, was irritated with brenard's
Childish 23year old friend.
had fun with the same group of ppl still.
but somehow, we managed to talk to more people in the class now.
:))))) home was horrible.
cause most of them missed their last train.

Sunday.
meet this group of girls again!
except for yveline.
woodlands library.
conducive place, we rent the project room. :D

Monday.
Access today.
test was kinda manageable.
at least i managed to finish most of the question.
seriously, i hope no more IT.

shall post some random photos.

it was super cute at first.

however, due to some mischeif of some people, it turn out to be like this.

2010-01-29T22:07:00.001+08:00

been hanging around w this group of girls.
:D

i told my mum that i never regret making this group of lovely girls.

i love them, to the max. now. :)

apparently, nothing is interesting in my life this week.

been going to school, doing tutorials.

tutorials keep coming, coming and coming.

i guess it never will stop coming.

as can be seen in this photo, i am wearing something really funny.

my classmates thought it was a fake specs.

but it is really, my new specs.

:D look like toy specs, right?

i am so loving it though i know some will make nasty comments about it.

I DONT CARE! :D

TUESDAY.

missed drawing lesson.

met this group of girls for breakfast at jurong point.

hahaha, we were prepared to attend lesson.

however, we went to the arcade first.

in the end, we lost the "mood".

and decided to take the time to visit the library.

as well as, to complete all the drawings.

we ps-ed chewping.

so sorry girl.

we really felt super guilty for doing that, seriously!

WEDENSDAY.

shopping!

after gems, all alone.

i joined them at bugis to shop! :D

ive managed to get all my new year clothes.

i am so dull this year, for new year.

cause most of my clothes is black. :(

THURSDAY.

dinner at wanqi's house.

visited her house, at jurong.

her family is super nice, cooked our dinner too!

i missed homecooked food so so much!

well, we were supposed to study access.

but failed. as it was too late, so we had some funny conversation,

laugh non-stop, eat non-stop, drink non-stop.

FRIDAY.

lesson ended in less than an hour.

0830 is the lecture time.

however, many were late.

we only managed to start at about 0930.

companied chewping to collect her laptop.

lunch-ed.

had a super satisfying meal. :)

i will be seeing them for this whole week.
tomorrow is our class BBQ.
<3

2010-01-23T18:12:00.002+08:00

Nothing is done again.
i got to stop using the laptop.
finished my work and off it.
waiting for the bluetooth-ing to finish.

HAPPY BITHDAY CAI, MAD, JAN.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA.
cai's house on wed.
skipped school.
sigh. cause i overslept.
feeling super guilty now. :(
had cake cutting session and catching up.
steamboat!
missed those guys lots. :D
later, wiiii. super noob.
but i wasnt the only one! :D
unglam photo of me was taken.

and happy birthday to my grandma.
didnt know it was her birthday.
we never celebrate family's birthday.
which is something sad.
i will celebrate it next time with my children and parents.
and my in-laws, i swear. :D

HAPPY BITHDAY AUNT.
been 105 days after my aunt left us.
missed her lots. the way she smile at me.
kinda weird to celebrate her birthday after she's gone.
but whatever it is, i love her. happy birthday. :)

ive rebonded my hair!
sat there for 3hours to have my hair done.
shopping for my family that day.
finally, finished getting all the cny clothes for brother.
ive get myself a new specs.
hahaha! it's pink and white.
werid and daring colour ive chose.
please, everyone, dont comment on it!
or i will cry.

school yesterday.
with my new hairdo.
loves said it look nicer. :D
of cos, i am always nice in whatever hairdo.
ooopppsss.
company ping to have her laptop reformat.
in the end, her laptop is hospitalised for 5days!
with medisheild, she need not pay for the hospitalisation. :D
cck after that.
shopping. but we get nothing.
except for stationary.
never fail to get something from the popular.

home today.
a breakthrough for me and brother.
after 2hours, we managed to have the lizard in the container.
without help from grandpa.
no one was at home.
we were trying and thinking of methods to kill the lizard.
it was throughly a big big breakthrough for me.
the sign of lizard freaked me up.
and this lizard is in my room!
on my desk, still!
it's black, newborn lizard.
it's so small that i couldnt see it.
it came from outside, trust me!
i hate lizard, cockroaches, snakes.
trust me and agree with me.
or i dont mind moving house now.

packing session with my brother.
he's graduated from secondary school.
congratulations. so, we have to clear unwanted books!
reformat my mp3 player. :(
this means i have to copy songs in again! argh. :(

2010-01-20T12:26:00.005+08:00

wanted to do my work.
but when the computer is on,
nothing is done.
i am busying with facebook and blogger.

i really have to stop doing this.
have to stop my games till exams are over.
i am serious now.

super angry with myself when i woke up late this morning.
didnt attend class today.
there's no point for me to rush to school.
the journey there already took me 45mins.
walking to class 5mins.

valerie valerie,..
study hard is not enough.
you must wake up early for class.

busy with a number of stuffs recently.
reports, tutorials.
enough to take up all my time.
i dont even have the time to study.
always so lazy.

celebrations here and there.
NONSTOP.
mom's super angry with me.

i thought i will be able make time for everything.
but i was wrong. sigh.

surprise birthday celebration for Zoe last Friday.
booked a chalet and bbq.
shall not talk too much about it.
lazy. :D

2010-01-14T22:35:00.001+08:00

Frustrating!
dont want to talk about it.
cp was so angry that she talked back.
bravo! :D
never will i dare to do so.
i will just stomach it down.
or talked behind.
well, if you're having the thoughts of complaining,..
count me in. :)

i am rebonding my hair next thursday!
and a new hairdo.
excited!

2010-01-13T19:33:00.000+08:00

i dream of you every night i sleep.
it becomes a medicine.
it cheers me up, at least.
i wish i never wake up.
the dream is too good to be true.
i know it's not possible, you've got over it.
i know. and i keep lying, saying ive got over.
in fact, i have not. i realized that now.
we will never be the same.

2010-01-10T20:33:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
KEEWEI!

have not wish her birthday yet.
opppsss.

spent lots of money today.
should i buy that jacket and heels sneaker?
i really love it! :(

planning to get the two if i still cant find something i like.
it cost a bomb.
just the two items, i will spend 170bucks.
:S

spent 130buck on
1 shirt, 1dress, 1vest, 1pants,
:DDD

my brother is paying everything.
soo, i will spend as much as i want.
revenge time.
he spent me a thousand plus for 3years of cny clothes.
now is my turn!
wahahaha.

2010-01-09T20:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
SISTER SAMMM!

had a early birthday celebration with big brother. :)
the hunk among 7 lovely girls.
man, do you feel like you had the whole whole? :D
had billy bombers for dinner.

almost everyone was late.
due to open house.

carol took her antique cam there.
"this cam cannot retake!"
she kept reminding everyone.

had his friends to crash his birthday celebration.
he was like, "hey why are you guys here?"
should have taken that down.

cake cutting session.
the celebration didnt end that easily.
added some goodies on his cakes.
everyone had a chance to at least feed him once.

i didnt suggest that.
I PROMISE.

riverside point after dinner.
drinking and fist-guessing.
i didnt drink.

cabbed home after a long day.
caroline carried lots of things.

2010-01-07T23:55:00.000+08:00

i am so loving my new blogskin.
hope with this new blogskin, more updates will be up.
and i just realized i didnt post a photo of myself.
wait till, i have a nice photo ya. :)

went SP Open House today.
SPCO was involved.
morning, 1100, performance.
super nervous. the tune is out, Totally.

after performace, free lunch.
who say there's no sure thing as free lunch?
this is an example. :D

definitely, we have lessons.
but LOA was given and it ends at 1500.
wahahaha. we should make use of what we have.
cherish. :D

so ive spent the time to help jieying with her building model.
penknife used to be my probia.
but not anymore. :)

2010-01-06T20:11:00.001+08:00

taken my results.
feel rather stressful - now.
guilty for not working hard.

i know my gpa is like quite high.
i am a workaholic. never satisfied with what i have.
i am sorry for being demanding, when it comes to work.
yes, i have never been able to stop complaining about how "badly" i have done.
i will try to stop complaining.
i am sorry.

note to self :
valerie, be contented.

kinda sick of my previous blogskin.
been doing nothing since i reached home.
useless bum, me.

2009-12-29T22:15:00.003+08:00

Monday
movie and dinner with SKCO gang.
watched bodyguards and assassins.
niceeeeee. :)
though all bodyguards died in the end.
but the fighting is kinda violent.
dinner at swensens.
:( im super broke.

Tuesday
party world with 5in1.
chewping cant make it.
gift exchanged.
i got chewping's present,
which is still unknown to me. :D
i am so in love with Lucas Till. :D

kinda lazy to blog in detailed.
forgive me, readers. :)

2009-12-25T16:05:00.001+08:00

B.L.I.N.G.S.
Christmas celebration with LOVES.
watched Sherlock Homeles.
niceeeee. :D
loved the show so much.
looking forward to part2. :)
steamboat at mag's house.
gift exchanged.
caroline bought us each a ring and cookies!
i got pink.
fated.

GIRLS.

movie tickets to draw lots.

super unglam. cause my leg hurts.

samsom got my present.

i already know what she get.

this is it.

got over it. like finally.

sort it all out.

and i am a happy girl again. :)

2009-12-22T17:28:00.000+08:00

Open up happiness.
:)
ive opened my 1st christmas present from
TANWANQING. :DDD
im super broke now.
so ive opened my coin bank. :(
gotta buy one more coin bank for myself later.

not gotta tell you how much ive saved.
:D

2009-12-21T14:26:00.000+08:00

okay.
you win.
i am done with this love game.
driving me crazy each time i see a new update.
i am done with it.

2009-12-19T23:55:00.002+08:00

privilege.
was given a membership card.
now i can get things with 10% discount in my shop.
20% on my birthday week.
guess my boss is planning to make it a lifetime buiness.
the card is lifetime membership. WOW!
:D

work is :(
but enjoyed it.
cause today there's x.yi and me!
was fighting nonstop about money matters.
money hurts feelings.
thats a direct translation from chinese.
:D

small matter.
she treat me an icecream. :D
and the icecream was nice!
craving for more now.
we ate nonstop.
ive spent 10.80 on food.
not including lunch.
isnt this amazing?

while working
were talking about relationship.
hahaha!
we agreed that guys are bad.
likes to give people wrong ideas.
never bother to explain why they do such hurting things.
always lying and avoiding the fact.
lol, that dont really applies to me or him.
but to most of my friends.
seriously, good guys hurts feelings.
this applies to him.

2009-12-19T00:20:00.001+08:00

housework!
been staying at home lately.
not contributing to anyone. lol.
so ive decided to help out with the housework.

BEFORE
watched mio movie.
home alone2 and hannah montana : the moive
super addicted to the songs.
as well as the show.
:D

i like my hair now. how?

AFTER
went caroline's house.
they had mahjong session.
yuppp, i am out.
watched them play.
watched together.
home.

2009-12-17T21:07:00.000+08:00

NEW MOON
out with wanqi. :)
out of the five, only the both of us are interested in new moon!
and as ive been ps-ed by ngsukchun.
therefore, i decided to watch with wanqi.
no promises to ngsukchun anymore.

lunch-ed.
new moon.

the combo cup is soooo cute.
alvin and the chipmunk.
who's in? i want to watch. :)

new moon,
nothing much.
everything's kinda expected.
seems like a looong show.
at least it's better, ALOT better than the storm warriors (the sound of the swords is horrible).
lol.

2009-12-16T17:24:00.003+08:00

blocked nose.
cough.
sore throat.
muscle ache.

the thoughts of you makes me crazy.
i shouldnt fall for you.
we shouldnt have.
stay strong, the both of us.

2009-12-15T22:34:00.000+08:00

TIRED.
night cycling with SPCO. 0000 to around 0700.
raining. played werewolves while waiting for the rain to stop.
interesting game. :)
after so loooong since i cycle. lol.
my very last time was a few years back.
had a fall and never dare to cycle again. however, i am not probia-ed to a super bad state.
i tried cycling yesterday and kinda overcame it?
though i keep stopping and bang onto fences, chairs and poles. i am still fine.
i survived. i thought i will met with an accident or sort. :D
*touch wood

BEFORE NIGHT
waterfall. :)
doing Our Nation Our World.
went to a child care centre.
they helping children who had complicating family background.
it was a tough job to take care of kids nowadays.
it seems easy. but when it comes to disciplines,
ohmygod.
still, it's fun. we had fun in the end.
those kids are adorable. :)

SPCO bbq. :)
reached chalet at 2100.
late. cause i went home for a shower first.
supposed to shower there.
but i didnt bring my stuffs.
didnt want to stayover actually. in the end, i changed my mind.
gladly, i had fun. or i will be miserably tired.
chatted with friends. after some time, we had photo taking session.

this is only a illusion.
i am sad.
if i have a wish, i wish i could know.

2009-12-13T14:44:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWINS.
finally, they are 17. lol. shhh,.. dont tell them i remember today it's their birthday. i planning to sms them later at 0000. :)
had their birthday celebration on friday. with a special guest, ZIYI. hahaha. soon, he's gotta be in this group. always sharing the presents and being invited. he's lovable uh. oppps. went chinatown to have dim sum. the food was okay. but the service sucks. dont like the people there. keep giving black faces. disappointed.

and there's a lift in the shop with no lift door. -.-

FAMILY PHOTO.

7 OF US. GRACE IS ABSENT.

4 MASTERMINDS. FOURSOME.

THE GOOD OLD DAYS. ALWAYS SPOILING THE PHOTOS. LOL.

THIS IS ONE WHO PS ME. SHE IS SUPPOSED TO CATCH NEW MOON WITH ME.

THE LIFT WITHOUT A DOOR.

HAPPY BIRITHDAY GIRLS. :)

2009-12-13T00:54:00.003+08:00

Superwoman

Early in the morning I put breakfast at your table,
and make sure that your coffee has its sugar and cream...
Your eggs are overeasy, your toast unlikely,
all that's missing is your morning kiss that used to greet me...
Now you say the juice is sour, it used to be so sweet,
and I can't help but to wonder if you're talking about me...
We don't talk the way we used to talk, it's hurting so deep,
I've got my pride, I will not cry, but it's making me weak...

I'm not your superwoman...
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down,
and think that everything is okay...
Boy I am only human...
This girl needs more than occasional hugs
as a token of love from you to me...

I fought my way through the rush hour trying to make it home just for you...
I want to make sure that your dinner will be waiting for you...
But when you get there, you just tell me you're not hungry at all,
you said you'd rather read the paper and you don't want to talk...
You like to think that I'm just crazy when I say that you've changed,
I'm convinced I know the problem, you don't love me the same...
You're just going through the motions and you're not being fair,
I've got my pride, I will not cry, still I can't help but care!!!

I'm not your superwoman...(oh no no no!!!)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
and think that everything is okay...
Boy I am only human...(I'm only human!!!)
This girl needs more than occasional hugs
as a token of love from you to me...

I'm not your superwoman...
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
and think that everything is okay...
Boy I am only human...
This girl needs more than occasional hugs
as a token of love from you to me...

Oooh, baby!!!
Look into the corners of your mind,
I'll always be there for you through good and bad times,
but I can't be the superwoman that you want me to be!!
I'll give my everlasting love if you'll return love to me!!
I'm not your superwoman!!!!

I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
and think that everything is okay...
Boy I am only human...
This girl needs more than occasional hugs
as a token of love from you to me...

Oh!!! If you feel it in your heart and you understand me,
stop right where you are, everybody sing along with me!
(hoo, hoo, hoo, hoo, hoo, hoo, hoo...)
I'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet,
but you got to realize that you got to be sweeter to me!!!
I need love, I need just your love, I'm not your superwoman...

2009-12-12T23:38:00.001+08:00

Finally!
exams are over. sigh, rather worried about my results. not as confident.
something is lacking inside me.
FREEDOM.
man, i have been studying and doing tutorials this whole term.
never spent time on things that are rather important too. feeling rather guilty.
feel rather lonely these days. rather empty inside me.
are the nightmares that powerful that it took all the cheerfulness in me?
i feel liked a changed person now. ohmygod. am i suffering from depression? lol.
nevermind that. have been missing something, or should i say someone? dont know what am i thinking.
scholarship will be my boyf now. hahaha. spent some time to attend the talk on university education talk.
it's not on the education system at all. it's more of telling us what we can do to obtain a scholarship and how to prepare ourselves when we face problems like interviews and blah blah.
useful still. and i am more determined to target a degree now. though my course is good enough without a degree. hahaha, i am greedy. :D
it's just a target. i might not make it. :S

2009-12-03T21:29:00.000+08:00

WHAT A DAY.
irritated. today's just not a good day for 5-in-1. not sure what we have done to deserved such treatment from so many people.
dont like. never loved thursday. the thoughts of these ppl really angered me. went arcade today. played car racing. those "kids" really thought they are so good. purposely let people who dont play well win 1st and then start to catch up and combed us. teenager, like my age, also did something so childish. cant believe it.
low-class.
was walking to the bus-stop.
so what if we are still studying. so what if we cant sleep late. dont need to show off what. so indirect. wth. irritating. nowadays, what is wrong with the teenagers?
back to school.
how can you expect us to finish the practical by 2hours? we still need to walk around the campus to take photos of finishes. print out. and he expect us to finish up and hand up to him 10-15mins time after lesson. ran from library. fell down.
misery thuraday.

2009-12-02T18:03:00.000+08:00

MC again.
should i say thank you to the doc? im like always sick these days. nightmares none stop too.
horrible. these are the nightmares i never want to let it happen in my life. gosh, lets hope for the best.
for my health and nightmares. neither do i want dreams. cause dreams are never realistic.
oh, shut up valerie.
yepppy.
homework all done. happy.
but exam is coming! not looking forward. daddy mummy keep telling me about uni these days.
stress. im attending a talk about going to uni. hope for the best uh.
nowadays, ive been hopping for the best. life's really tiring now. rather sick of life. lol. neither do i want to die so soon. but the world might be ending in 2012. weird world. -.-
oh, shut up valerie.
tsk.

2009-11-30T23:39:00.000+08:00

back to school. :)
after 5days of rest, im back schooling. missed school lots. supposed to visit the doc again. cause my cough, throat infection and flu is back. guess my immune system had already immuned to the medicine the doc's prescription.

told wanqi a joke when we were on our way to dover.
she asked how come i finished all my medicine so fast.
i replied idk, the doc gave me 5days only.
she said usually her medicine is for a week.
i replied the doc expected that i will be back in 5days.
lol?
...

not funny. -.-

anyway, i think i will be going back to the clinic. cause im talking and coughing at the same time. after 2sentence, i might cough. christine said the very 1st thing i will do when i see them is cough. hahaha. sorry guys. hope, im not creating a nuisance during exam. :D

IT was surprisely interesting today. learnt access. not sure what is it. hahaha. somehow, i pay atttention during lecture and i understand what mr tan was teaching. this is the very 1st good news for IT. we managed to glanced through our results for the 1st two test. was good. didnt really expect such result. hopefully, it will be better than worse. mr tan said test results will deteriorate as we reach the end. hope for the best. :)

2009-11-28T18:49:00.000+08:00

not recovering.
still sick. my medicine is running out. and im still coughing. though no as badly, but still coughing.
how come? and im having slight rash on my fingers.
antibodies is also not giving any effects on my health.
am i dying? haha. somehow, i want to die. not sure why.
i want to know what is it like. what will i see, how will i become. isnt this cool?
but now, im dropping this thoughts. crazy, who would want to die like now? im still young.
yea, cough cough cough. horrible. i think i got some fatal disease. lol. couldnt stop coughing.

3days of rest. nothing gets done. quite irritated with myself.
worried that my gpa will drop. didnt want to disappoint my parents. but i just cant stop slacking.
time to buck up! :D

2009-11-25T20:28:00.002+08:00

mc from scool today. sick. :( feeling horrible in the morning.
mummy allowed me to skip school. so i take the chance to see a doc. super sick. having flu and slight fever now.
doc said im okay. but i need plenty of rest. ive been working hard for schoolworks. neglected the need to rest my body.
so doc gave me 2days mc.
feeling rather stress in school these days. not sure why. ive been slacking like mad, i think. not studying. always doing last min works. dont like these feelings.
also, feeling rather stressed up when i comes to helping my friends in their work.
i feel that im not putting a good effort in helping my friends with their work. feeling rather guilty when i see them still stuck in their work.
in the past, i was always the one, not sure of what i should be doing next for that particular question in my work. however now, my friends are the one facing these problems.
i understand how they feel. but i really dont know what i can do in order to help them. seeing and hearing their dismay in their work, really made me feel kinda lost.
exam timetable is out. not looking forward to exams.
and ive postpone baptizing to some other time. not holding it during christmas. i feel that it's not the right time yet. probably.

love is such a funny thing. sometime you hate, sometime you love.

what is really love?

2009-11-22T19:54:00.000+08:00

YEA.
finally i finished the web design. thanks girls for helping out. :)
work till 0400 yesterday. lack of sleep. now, im having headache. great.
still, feel rather accomplished. i thought i wont make it on time. was rather stressed up and guilty.
coughing all the way. and was having fever when i reached home yesterday night. dreadful. :(
have the thoughts of just gave up. but no. i cant. thats not the way i act.
tried my best to wake up early in the morning and finish everything up which was 1700. :D
coughing still. getting worse. daddy's been nagging. mummy been forcing me to take cough medicine.
yuckky. dont like. the medicine is so "thick". i rather die than take that.
well, a promise is a promise. promised parents to see a doc if im still not recovering.
:DDDDDD

out early in the morning yesterday. met 5in1. supposed to be 5 of us. but the eldest were not free. so left the three same kid. met to study and complete the web design. and i kept forgetting to bring the web design notes. in the end, we didnt really work on that. rather guilty. and felt that my part as a leader was really sucky.
went SIM and a super funny experiences. lol. people in there was staring at us. cause we bought drawings there. i think it's more to a business school. and i was super loud when i teach wanqi in the library. kept laughing and felt rather weird. it's like a strange world there. everyone is like alone.
and i must say, i really am going to cherish everything i have at home and in SP. cause the facilities there was quite limited. we had problems finding seats, a proper seats. lol.
dinner at aston. was christine and wanqi's 1st time experiences. super honoured to have them for dinner. lol. hang around in the arcade. like a place everyone wont expect. been rather addicted to racing games. thats why we been hanging around the arcade.

oppps, a rather wordy post. dont mind. :D

2009-11-19T21:03:00.002+08:00

thursday is a complete waste of time. didnt do anything productive today. :(
and the cough is pissing me off. it just dont seems to recover. the doc is indeed professional uh.
i have spent money again! spent it on some necessary stuffs but still, i have over spent what i should. heartbroken.

2009-11-18T19:39:00.001+08:00

I am tagged.

while waiting. :D amazing with the skill? ask the girl in front to teach then. :)

only guys in the group.

super camowhore.

2009-11-18T18:19:00.000+08:00

Im still stuck with work. how am i gotta finish up all my work by today?! irritated with myself now. :(
Im blogging at Tumblr too. http://eirela-v-alerie.tumblr.com/
apprantly, Im too bored. :D

2009-11-16T21:04:00.000+08:00

so whats the point of holding when you dont even care anymore.
im sad, but my tears stopped falling.
im happy, but it's all fake.
im angry, but i know im not the next second.
im disappointed, but somehow i get to understand the reasons.
im always dreaming, waiting and nothing is right anymore.
thats all i know.

2009-11-11T00:03:00.000+08:00

Doesnt she a babe?

haha. quite addicted to ice-creams. love at first sight. though it's not nice. -.- the look already stolen my heart. haha. im so happy when i see this! ohmy. and im super happy. dont know why. cheers me up for no reason.

Out w TANWANQING.

finally, i meet her. im super sorry for not being able to meet her. cause im like super busy with stuffs. and im not sure why am i so busy. a week after her birthday, i finally met her. gave her a present and a surprise gift, sleeping bag. haha. forgot to tell her that im returning her today. nevermind, i gave her a nice paper bag to put everything in. hope you like the present girl. :) and ive decided to make time. :D im super sorry for not being able to make time for SKCO group, vt, xy, TANWANQING. haha. so, i will meet TANWANQING every even week tue. the rest, book me uh. haha. or else you wont see me anymore, i guess. :D

2009-11-08T00:26:00.001+08:00

I MADE THIS.

this is my new found talent. isnt it cute? my cousin made one and i sort of figured it out. haha. i dont really know why my dog has a really long tail. this makes him special. went cousin's 21 birthday celebration. went to this pretty cool place. i dont know where either. it's like a house. quite an isolated place, i think. no fast food, no cheers, no wild wild wet. just some small houses w bbq pit. my family had earned an experiences. haha. never been bbq before. i mean we dont cook. haha. so we had a hard time figuring out how to cook the foods. also, we bbq without butter. thats something amazing.

30th Oct.

Thu. we took a long time heading back for ECT tutorial. cause it's freaking boring. i nearly fell asleep. i mean i didnt fall asleep. haha. was raining. in order to get ourselves back to T7, ...

3rd Nov

Tue. we had design and drawing. super long day. made a crazy video. i think no one wants me now. haha. and also, piano-ing on midair while waiting for the lecture to start. was a hectic day. cause we are on our own to have our drawing done. Dawn was super kind to help 6girls, including herself to carry their t-square. i wasnt included. :D

doesnt she like a Ninja?

4th Nov

Wed. went pulau tekong with not just my class but also some other. visited the National Service place. pretty cool. actually, it isnt that bad to go for NS. nice bed, rooms and factilities avaliable. i didnt try the food there. but sound pretty nice. and i saw Daniel and Peng fei. Peng fei was saying didnt met me in SP at all when we were working. and now, we did. at least one. we were ferried there and back to the checkpoint. seasick.

2009-10-31T01:43:00.000+08:00

IM HAPPY. :D

up at 0630. cp asked me why im always late these days. i dont know. lol. well, i woke up early. just that im late, still. the distance is one problem. guess i have to move to SP. i will build a house at T3A. then i wont be late. sometimes, i have the thought of staying at the hostels. but the look of it freaked me up. eeeee~ well, if my mum allows, i might move. now, wq is thinking of moving too! ive got company. :D i guess, we wont sleep for nights. staying up late, playing gossiping camwhoring fighting.

ECT
boring! i cant stand a 3hours lecture. super tiring and it starts at 0830. it's a good thing actually. it kills me still. nothing gets into my head. lol. tried to listen and copy notes. without drawing, i will die. i played golf game in my phone and broke the high score, at last. well, it's bad! lol. sigh, i got to find my motivation! home after lunch-ing w wq cp at sumo-house. tried some fish. it sucks man. lol. i dont dare to look at it. cp and wq dare me! tsk. so ive to eat something so gosh.

yay, it's disgusting right?! lol. we didnt finish it. i mean not even one fish. wastage is a sin. im so sorry. and ive made a vow to myself. i shall make myself fat from today. ive slimmed down. and i realized that only when i was seeing my old photos. so ugly now. super ugly. haha.

home. rest.
goodnight, im sleeping now. xoxo. :D

2009-10-29T22:21:00.002+08:00

STRESS.
sigh, ive been slacking. my mind is swaying. cant concentrate studying and doing my projects. Everyday is tiring. tsk. now, ive lots of incomplete work to rush through. serve myself right. gosh, No motivation. my GPA cant drop. stress.

Library,
with BABES today. super noob. cause we have never been to SP library and borrow a book. lol. went looking for the guide book we need for Construction Technology. know nothing about borrowing books in SP. and we anyhow scan. the ppl behind were teaching us. and i couldnt stop laughing. the instructions were quite clear. just that we dont get it. too nervous. at last, we managed to borrow the guide. :D

ECT
tutorial is as boring. i couldnt stop falling asleep. at last, christine and wanqi wants to get out and i followed. went to the toilet and purposely walked to moberly to just have our water bottles refilled. drank our water and went to the toilet at moberly and sit there. chatted and toilet again before heading back to the class. can you see how desperate i was to just get out of the class? tutorial is kinda common sense now. but i dont know why the part-time, banker lecturer wants to go through the questions and give us the ans. well, when we have had the mood to go back, it started to rain. thanks to our jacket, we managed to walk back to class. :D

2009-10-27T23:01:00.002+08:00

Changes.
had a change of my blogskin. cool? ive spent like nearly 2hoursto decide which blogskin to change to. lol. and i forgot my cbox username and password. -.- feel rather useless these days. keep forgetting stuffs and important things. anw, woke up early in the morning. met BABES to get stuffs for Design and Drawing lecture and practical. in the end, most of the things were out-of-stock. irritating. kinda wasted, the trip. but at least ive got my T-square. we were kinda crazy too. bought 400g of cookies at famous amous and had free 100g. haha! just for the free 100g and we decided to get the 400g of cookies by NETs. back to school after lunch. and we were late. this is like the very 1st time in this sem. :D and lecture already started when we went in. hurry over to Mr Koh's table and see what he's teaching. caught up and had practical. love Design and Drawing. so fun. :D

ive spent about 34bucks on the materials needed for Design and Drawing. :( feel like crying. ive never feel so broke can. i need to save already. :D pay in soon. and im all excited. however, those money belongs to my mum. owed her lots of money. though she didnt ask for it. feel rather guilty. :D

Thanks for those ppl who wrote to me during the camp. :) ive recieved the envelop w many of you encouraging letters. :) sorry, to have left the camp halfway through due to some problems at home to handle. im sorry. hope you guys really enjoyed the camp. seniors, thanks for all your help and guidance. though it's freaking. lol. and yay, i think there's some miscommuincation. anything, just tell me straight on my face. cause im rather willing to listen. no ofference. :)

2009-10-26T20:45:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAYs!
celebrated sc's birthday on thu. super tired from school. but still, met up w LOVES. planned a dinner at taiwan cafe for her. planned something for her, a surprised party. she was super shocked. and m wasnt in a normal condition that day. mixed the food and we forefit sc to eat it all cause she was the birthday girl. poor girl uh. m stolen a taiwan cafe menu for sc. haha.

SPCO camp.
stayover in school on fri. finished lesson super early. supposed to finish at 1130. but ended at 1030 instead. breakfasted w y ly c. headed to clubhouse to put my super heavy bag. didnt know why my bag is that heavy. went to catch a movie, ps-ed d. sorry. didnt mean to. it was a last min decision. then, went to get stuffs for the camp. back to sp. and start packing, bathing and sleep.

DAY 1

teambuilding in the morning. lunch, mass activity, station games, dinner, skit performance, night walk, sleep. so worried that we had not enough materials.

DAY 2

breakfast at 0900. dodge ball in the morning. was raining super heavily. so we eneded up playing in Dance Studio. wasnt a bad idea though. lunch and had treasure hunt. was quite screwed up at the beginning. but settled later. sorry to have made a mistake in the clue. :D home, halfway through the game.

hope everyone enjoyed the camp. :)

sc, thanks for the cookies. it cheered me up a lot. :)

NO SCHOOL.

skipped school today. super tired. i fall asleep while reading my brother's essays. lol. and woke up at 0700. but went back to sleep. feel super horrible. muscle ache everywhere and sore throat. yucks, dont like the feeling. supposed to but materials needed for deisgn and drawing. but didnt manage to. meeting BABES to get it tomorrow morning. :) sorry to have caused them all the running around to market the price. and im like at home. :(

YOURE SUCH A JERK.

2009-10-19T21:00:00.007+08:00

First day of school.
omg, i think school sucks man. First lecture of the day is Law. though i love this module lots, it still sucks. as the lecture is super boring. :( my second lecture was IT for property industry and it sucks too. only when it comes to the second part, it became better. we do web designing. lol. imagine yourself in the lecture room for 3.5hours for Law and 4hours for IT for propert industry. ohman, it sucks. everyone's having monday bluess now. :( had my law paper back today. after so long. :D scored 75 out of 100. i always regret choosing the questions. cause i just cant score for some questions and yet i still do it. this is the reason why i cant get an A for law. well, it's okay. there's always time for improvement. :D

GETTING OVER..

2009-10-17T01:48:00.001+08:00

OMG!

i spent money again. tsk. irritated w myself. spent on 2books. wanna get the top but it's too expensive. therefore i dropped the idea. haha! secretly took a photo of it in the fitting room. cause i love it a lot! :(

Dread!

i miss my aunt. went for the funeral and i cant help much. didnt take joss sticks. didnt pray. feeling rather out-of-place. and guilty. as i wasnt that close to her when she was around. not that she's gone, i didnt even do the basics. sigh. still, im forgiven as everyone in my family knows that im a christian believer. sometimes, i have thoughts of just being a free thinker. isnt this better? i can believe all religion and do whatever i want. sigh. still considering. funeral was super bad. cause ive been crying. when i met my aunts and uncles and grandparents. everyone telling me that she's gone and how she was like when she was around. life without her will be tough for my grandparents. then, when i get to see her body, i cried even more. seeing her lying in th coffin, motionless with stitches that reminds me of curry puff. and i really miss her. she was pale, but she was not sad. she seems rather comfortable. therefore, i get it. i know why she wants to choose this way. she feel happier. though she left us. everyone will never forget her loving smile and kindness. :)

Camp prep today.

supposed to meet 1000. but almost everyone was late. lol. start at 1100? i think. well, i wasnt really sure w all the games. rx and me was like thinking different things. talking about different things. lol. we are not of same mind though. finally, finished. we started to have a mini meeting at stage@moberly. later we start playing game till 1900. dinner at holland v. took the wrong bus. everyone was hungry. in the end, we took a cab and eat NYDC. expensive. but worth the money. :D love the mango tango float. :) home.

2009-10-12T22:34:00.004+08:00

You just dont care anymore.

Why are the ppl i loved leaving me one by one? am i really not meant to not be loved? why do they have to go? arent they sad when they leave this world and when they said goodbye to me? why are they so cruel to just leave the rest behind? is there really heaven? will they be happier there? i hope so. someone told me heaven is all made of gold, the floors, the gate, the stairs, the seats, everything. i tried picturing it now. however, my aunt is not a christian. she wont be there, right? where will she go? i miss her.

2009-10-12T01:57:00.004+08:00

BBQ at Pasir Ris Park yesterday.
class gathering. but it seems more like a clique gathering. cause the clique members are present except for Z who's still in Malaysia. :) work in the morning as XY had something on in the morning. company from her at about 1500. and we lost a wallet which cost 10bucks. -.- there goes her 2hours pay as she insisted on paying for the loss as she found it and not me. luck is not on my side recently. had a loss of 14bucks on my last day of work at Oscar too. tsk. how can this be? i had a exceed of 50buck on my second last day and a loss of 10buck on my last day of work. Life's unfair. lol. anw, i didnt have to pay for the loss as Az insisted that she hired me to work and not pay. so, there goes her 10bucks. i have lots of nice friends around, i realized that. :D
Back to BBQ, the starting of fire took super long. about 5hours? lol. cause they started at about 1700, i think. we only managed to cook smoothly at 2200. thats how long they took to start a fire. almost everyone's gone home when the fire started. lol. left the clique and shafik nariz sophian hafiz junda kelvin yijie. caught the last 89 home.

out w SC to get bag. however, didnt manage to get the one i wanted. found one but it was the last piece and it's kinds of old. so ive decided to not buy first. Orchard later. and ive spent $100. lol. Bought: 2shirts, 2necklaces, bracelets, earpiece, book, wallet. :D kinda crazy uh. but these are all in my shopping list. so, actually im not misusing my hard-earned money.

Happy Birthday Daddy!
Happe Birthday QiQi!

2009-10-10T02:57:00.002+08:00

Last Day! im free from Oscar. :D

2009-10-09T01:04:00.000+08:00

buzzzzz.
have been rather busy w stuffs. happy stuffs had been happening at least. but im still rather pushed-back at times. it's me, i know. lol. well, start from Saturday. it's been a terrible day at Oscar. starting to hate that place, seriously. the work is ridculous. i mean some of the ppl are. dont really like. seems like a battle field rather than a working platform.
Sunday, went church. After so long, i managed to off that day and attend church. was taught about foolish and wise men. wasnt something bad. teaching us to be a better christian. :)
Monday&Tuesday, work at Compass point. missed the 'home' feeling there. lol. and health is improving lots after i start working there. cause im drinking lots of water and eating regularly. the worse part, the sales. keep worrying that i wont hit it. but in the end, it was so much better. better than what ive expected. :D
Wednesday, SPCO. meaningful day, cause ive managed to not messed up with the notes. however, when it comes to full orchestra, it's still as bad. everything was messed up again. lol. later, supper. wasnt supposed to join them. in the end, im hungry. i didnt sleep well again.
Thursday, concert meeting for SPCO concert 2010. sigh, still cant come out w a theme. im starting to feel useless. as my chinese sucks. and i cant really help. however, had a great fun crapping. later, dinner w s s. both of them arrived super late. sc was supposed to meet me at 8pm, in the end, she reached at 8.45pm. s didnt want to meet us. then say okay. then no. then okay, reached at about 10pm?
Home. :)

2009-10-06T23:42:00.000+08:00

I Hate Work Now.
i had enough of work. it's just getting to nowhere. ive decided to not work even after school reopen. bye.

2009-10-01T01:33:00.006+08:00

Forgotten.
is it me? ive been asking myself, am i the one w problems? seriously, ive tried my best of the best. but seems like it's not appreciated. it's like my efforts are being drained off. still, i must say im determined? comeon, if you have a problem, tell me alright? i hate that stupid irritating ridculous childish sensitive nonsensical feeling. i hate that. i hate myself too. yucks.

SPCO.
practice at 1500. but started late. practice. dinner, subway. full orchestra practice. zy is super idiotic? lol. keep saying and acting like an idiot. lol. but i must say, it's entertaining. attended only half of the orchestra practice. cause seriously, i lost all my confidence. i dont have the confidence i used to have. been telling myself to not be so freaky. but still, it does not work well. i think i should do something about myself. lol. i cant go on like this. and deteroriating is not a good thing to talk about. maybe this is not the right choice for me? lol.

But, im not gotten give up. i used to say:

'Nothing is impossible unless you give up.'

maybe i should paste that on the side of my bed as a motivation to not just co but studies as well. then i might be able to make it through?

after practice, supposed to supper w SPCO. but i didnt join them. wanted to go home. but met s and companied her for supper. in the end, i ate somethingt too. a plus point to me? cause it has been awhile since i feel hungry? lol. hmm, chatted and we lose track of time. i nearly missed the last train, not just MRT but LRT as well. luck is on my side uh. lol. i managed to board the last train home. :)

With c s z and the other girls, my life seems to change so much. w/o them, i just dont have the motivation in everything i do. wasnt cause of them, i wont be able to suddenly do well in my studies. seriously, it's not easy for a NA student to promote to express, taking triple science, double maths, history as humantities. thinking about how i made it through it's really amazing. im grateful to have such friends around me. i really missed those time. in skco, im really grateful too to have such friends around, telling me and guiding me. it's really a disgrace about what ive done to disappoint them when i didnt come off with a good decision which benefits everyone in the orchestra.

P/S: L.O.V.E.S, dont be too touched about what ive said uh. :D Readers, got questions must ask me. im a honest person. :)

HAPPY CHILDRENS' DAY.

2009-09-29T23:35:00.000+08:00

ive found 60bucks.
luck is on my side today. feeling rather happy. ive managed to eat ice-cream today. lol. after work i went 711 to get ice-cream! not sure why. but ive been craving for ice-creams. ive been acting like a child these days. and the managers at Oscar said im 'made in china'. cause i have the ascents. they thought i was from mymmar at first. but later, they changed to china. -.- this is something good. though ive always wanted to be an american. lol.
yay, today i worked S.O.S w c. happy. first time im working w her. feeling rather excited at first. and this is our second time working S.O.S. fun. cause we know nothing. just blur blur pushed in the cart and pushed out. lol.

2009-09-29T00:46:00.000+08:00

Omg.
i realized that im super packed. just this week, im working on tue fri sat. wed im going SPCO, thu im going k-box, sun im going church. and next week, work on mon tue at compass point. wed im going SPCO, sat im having class gathering and sun im going church. im only left with thu and fri next week. and im gotta give that for Oscar. lol. so im like super busy? however, i seems rather satisfied with my life now. at least im keeping myself busy, no time for stupid things. haha! this is good. ive more time with c s too. just that im neglecting a bit of my family. well, i will try harder for it. cause, im free on sun. and sun is family day! at last, i can sit with my family and have dinner?

Today i had a great day.
out for a walk. 1st i went to compass point to have my specs adjusted, after so long. and headed to tampines. looked for xinyi and bought a present for boss. later, went to get s her scheduler. next, i had my late lunch. shopped around tampines1. and dinner w s. s was super late. so i had a super late dinner too. lol. and i saw Januver. after so long. miss him lots. the last time i saw him was the time he was disappointed w what ive done regardless of my responsiblilty in co. :D yay, and i still have the cheek to talk about it. lol.

2009-09-28T01:53:00.000+08:00

Crying.
im super tired. im super broke. im super sad. work work work. my whole life is working now. never seems to stop. finally, i get to rest tomorrow. NO WORK! not just tomorrow but also wed, thu and sun. so, i get to go SPCO, get to meet B.A.B.E.S, get to go church. :) at least this week im gotta fulfil what ive not been doing. working at Oscar is like attending slimming lesson uh. ive got about 10mosquitoes bites? lol. my blood isnt that polluted now. i think. :D good enough, im gotta be working SOS on tue and fri, less mosquito bites. and ive got a cut. now, there's a hole on my finger. lol. cause the wood went in. i only realized it after 20mins? and yay, some nice lady managed to take out the wood. :( s told me, im super clumsy. :D

2009-09-27T01:50:00.002+08:00

POTLUCK at Mag's.
HAHA! went c's house to make agar agar and sandwiches. agar agar is made by c. i managed to help with buying the sugar? lol. i cut the sandwiches skin. proud of myself. been long since i took a knife. i didnt kill c. but mable nearly kill me. cause i said something that irritates the little child? or im too cute that she cant stop staring at me? lol. reached mag's house and chat. FINALLY, s s came. dont know what they did in the kitchen sia. took so long to do the cornflakes and sheperd pies. ate and crap. been nice, everyone. we switched on the television and watched it though we have never watched that particular show before, isnt that amazing? lol. and mahjong for the gamblers. left g me watching television and chatting about studies. lol. at last, Home. :)
im lazy to upload photos. and there isnt nice ones. most of the pictures has got s in it. so, i shall not post any. or he thought he super cute sia. lol.

work today.
super boring. like always. and heard lots of complaints. and me, myself have lots of complaints to make. i seriously dont know why ppl see pushcart as a roadside stall. keep wanting unreasonable discounts on items which are worth the money. though, shawls and stuffs are not as practical. but still, the price is reasonable, i think. so, please, my friends, dont ask for too much discount when buying things in pushcart k? cause the workers super poor thing. i understand how they feel. :(

2009-09-24T23:25:00.002+08:00

:D
been long since im happy? :) work at Oscar yesterday. doing pushcart. while doing the preparation for the cart, i cant carry the pail of water. lol. huijun helped me instead. everyone's saying im skinny. yes, i am. im just born to be skinny. didnt mean to. i eat a lot. :D huijun wants me to become fat fat. and scoop a super big bowl of rice. i cant finish. at least half-full left. :) and push cart out at 5.30? many ppl look at me when i push the cart out. cause im stuck. lol. no strength already. so superwoman c helped me. time passed rather fast when i started working at Oscar. it's a good thing. time's up. peng fei helped me to push the cart in. there's 2cart. he pushed one in. and i was supposed to push the other. but i only managed to push about 1step? and im stuck again. lol. no strength. HOME alone.

work at T1.
super boring. no ppl can. i was taking my sweet time to pack stocks, see things. time just pass slow. and many wants a discount today. i rejected. lol, they thought im boss. anw a granny talked to me. nice lady. asked me about my studies. talked about her children and grandchildren too. she's a pretty rich lady. lol. talking about future, im so excited. dont know why. i want to know who i will be when i grow up. obviously, still valerie. lol. back, yup, work is pretty much horrible. and ive decided to devote my time to SPCO and studies. as well as all my beloveds. :) life's so much better now. though im still a little 'push back' at times. but, i will be back to the never-better-condition. :) and ive spent money on 3rubber bands and 1hp pouch to just help the sales a bit. -.- sad.

EVERYONE, thanks for the concerns. im okay now. :D i know ive been too bottled up with whatever im thinking feeling and saying these few days. i know im also suck at acting to be okay. i know. lol. well, now im really okay. everytime, i seems to be the one saying life goes on. now ppl are telling me that! cant believe it. lol. yup, im fine now. my cheerfulness will be back. i promise to all my beloveds that i wont bottle up what im thinking. i will comment like shit. will this do? :DDDDDDDDDDD

potluck tomorrow at MAG's house.
P/S: HOPEFULLY THE FOOD EVERYONE BRING IS EDIBLE CAUSE IVE A WEAK STOMACH.

2009-09-23T11:56:00.001+08:00

Results out.
didnt have a good night again. keep getting nightmares recently, just like when i was young. it's not due to the results. people who im close to are dying in my nightmares. it's horrible. just like in the show, final destination. never like the feeling of keep getting nightmares. every nightmare i had, i was trying my best to escape and also, trying my best to not cry over every death of my friends. it's just too horrible. seeing them die in my dreams. whenever, i wake up, i keep telling myself it's a dream. but it never helped. i felt miserable each day.

anw, back to results, i did pretty well. :) satisfied with it. i think i am.

2009-09-23T01:09:00.002+08:00

work at Oscar Oscar today.
super busy day. it's my 1st day of work. that place is super foreign at first. but wasnt that bad after that. worked s.o.s, Songs Of the Sea with Lily. 2girls pushing the carts and trying to put in and take out the unbrella. isnt that a breakthrough for her? lol, i didnt help much. was super clumsy and quiet. and we had super lots of excess instead of loss for the sales. not sure why. anw, after work, helped up with the cleaning for closing. and home with nino (kianwee). not sure to call him when i bumped to him in the train cause we didnt really talk. now, ive found a few companies home. name: Sukchun Samson Caroline(i dont think there's much chance cause someone sent her home, lol.) Kianwee. till now at least. never liked being alone nowadays.

and, im back to my old self. ive decided to not let anything affect me. nothing. im not the down-to-earth type. i know, thats why, i dont want to go through and tried my best in doing something for others. i just want to live it for myself. i need freedom. i need to do things others can do. so, ive decided not to be into religion. i want to just be the way i used to be.

2009-09-21T20:06:00.005+08:00

Syco concert on Saturday.

Work at T1.

super busy and im all alone. xinyi came to help out awhile and tell me how im supposed to close the cart. super boring and cold. though ive wore a jacket and a shawl. -.-

ive just realized that im more pink than red now. guess, ive fall for pink. lol. and the pink care bear is a gift. isnt it cute with my specs on?

i have concluded that you have never liked me before and it's all my wishful thinking. this will put a good end to it for me. at least i need not suffer that much by knowing that youve liked me before. even if this is the truth, i think i really have to live on with this lie. i dont need the truth in life anymore.

2009-09-19T00:27:00.002+08:00

Dreadful.
everything seems to end just like that. maybe it's not meant to be. it's just too difficult to say goodbye to every single thing. it's just difficult. however, im strong. ive grown stronger. the fact cant be changed. i dont have a reason to just forget. neither will i wait. just let it stop here. time is all i need now. i will still live happily. i will. i promise i will never cry cause of you. i promise you. guess, this is the last promise i can make. im sorry to have caused so much misery to you. maybe if im more aware, i wont let it continue just like this and it wont be like this.

im valerie. though im a christain believer, i guess i will still continue to be a believer, please, im still valerie in whatever decision and way ive made in my life. the statues does not change me. i can only change for myself and not others. maybe, i am weird. but people, arent everyone acting differently? we are just different.

Out with B.A.B.E.S
been long since i met them. celebrated Christine's birthday. went to eat at justAcic(i dont know how to spell). supposed to go Settlers cafe after lunch but it was raining. and there's no shelter there. therefore, we went to watched movie. :) always, we never fail to watch movie at every gathering. watched The Ugly Truth. super funny show. wanted to sneak to watch BloodTies. but it's too obvious that im not 18 yet. hence, we didnt take the risk. the guy even checked us when we buy ticket on The Ugly Truth. lol. maybe i dont look like a 16 to him too. later, walked around and chatted. went Yat Kun Coffee Shop. and we chatted about our childhood. isnt it great to think about the past? so funny and stupid of us to react to things happened when we were young. like crying, rebelling and always happy and forgiving.

and yay, i know i look super shag.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTINE !

2009-09-17T10:47:00.000+08:00

everything will be okay.
im okay.
i will be okay.
jiayou, valerie.

2009-09-17T10:29:00.001+08:00

花接受凋零

风接受追寻

心的伤还有一些不要紧

我接受你的决定

你将会被谁抱紧

唱什么歌哄他开心

我想著天空什么时候会放晴

地球不曾为谁停一停

你的明天有多快乐不是我的

我们的爱是唱一半的歌

时间把习惯换了

伤口愈合

也撤销我再想你的资格

你的祝福

一半甜的一半苦的

像我手中冷掉的可可

最最教人残念的总是未完成的

我只能唱著一半的歌

元若蓝 - 半情歌

你将会被谁抱紧

唱什么歌哄他开心

我想著天空什么时候会放晴

地球不曾为谁停一停

你的明天有多快乐不是我的

我们的爱是唱一半的歌

时间把习惯换了

伤口愈合

也撤销我再想你的资格

你的祝福

一半甜的一半苦的

像我手中冷掉的可可

最最教人残念的总是未完成的

我只能唱著一半的歌

元若蓝 - 半情歌

词:陈静楠曲:方文良

唱片 - 《命中注定我爱你》电视原声带

我的明天快不快乐都是我的

我们的爱是唱一半的歌

时间把习惯换了

伤口愈合

也撤销我再想你的资格

你的祝福

一半甜的一半苦的

像我手中冷掉的可可

最最教人残念的总是未完成的

另一半的歌

2009-09-15T11:42:00.001+08:00

woke up at 8am today.
was woke up by bro's alarm at 6am. i think i switched it off my accident cause i thought he on his player by accident. lol. then fell asleep. and woke up at 8am. super tired. but i just couldnt sleep. great, at such a young age, im having insomnia.
since i couldnt sleep, i woke up and went jogging. all thanks to the stitches and i have to stop. home. bathe. breakfast. craved for mac breakfast in the morning. went down, guess im super hardworking though im super tired.
received s sms saying that whether is it possible for me to work for her. im dead beat and i have to work. today's just isnt the day for me. hmmm, i didnt really promise her that. still need to wait for Az's reply. i do wish she will say no but i feel so guilty for no helping s to work as she was sick.
im just too kind-hearted. boss sms me yesterday night. asking me to work for her at t1. and i agreed. cause she really dont have enough worker. so im planning to skip cca next week for work. getting myself ready, i suppose. feeling super guilty as im afraid of Az. i dont know why. the way she said about working at Oscar Oscar scare me lots.
God, please give me faith and courage. im super affected with what others thinks nowadays. sigh.
and great, i cant sign in to MSN.

2009-09-15T00:19:00.001+08:00

The Time Traveler's Wife
:) nice show. out with s today to catch it. :) met her at 4pm. and headed to plaza sing. supposed to watch there but we were hungry. skipped lunch. ate HK cafe. and someone wants to collect her phone. so we went to cinleisure to watch instead. okay. im super blind now. dont remember where i placed my specs. blog next time. :)

2009-09-14T14:45:00.002+08:00

oing out!
meeting s later. watching movie. im super broke. but at least im still left with a little money to watch the time traveller's wife. :D wanted to watch that since dont know when? lol. guess i really cant live without my cam. :D and im super early now! im all ready. waiting for time to quickly pass.

2009-09-13T22:50:00.002+08:00

Ive grown up!
church in the morning. :) seems like going to church and chatting is really part of my life now. i do love the feeling of going to church, always.
after church, supposed to go for Wide Street Evangelism with church. but i went somewhere.
went Sentosa alone. though it's not the very 1st time i did this. but this is my ever 1st time travelling there and back home alone. proud of myself. daddy doubt my ability and mummy was so proud of me. :D cause she said she would never travel all the way to Sentosa alone. laugh*
how did they managed to give birth to such a lovely and independent daughter uh. lol
Interview at Oscar Oscar. feel rather comfortable there. im super looking forward. though i lied to my pervious boss that i was busy thats why didnt want to work for her. didnt want to hurt her feeling.
im sorry.
anw, was interviewed by Az. and walked around. chatted with lovely c and the hunk s. and left. i took photos. lol. and i really do look like a tourist there with my cam. :D

byeeeeee.

tomorrow someone is back. :)

2009-09-12T12:17:00.003+08:00

out w L.O.V.E.S. :)
met 1pm. and when i was about to leave home, it rained heavily. i reached the void deck, i was thinking how am i gotta walk to the train station.
i saw a wild dog. -.- the dog saw me and gotta approach me sia. i dont know how to react. stand there and prayed. lol.
thank god, theres a thunder and it ran away. phew. met s s and had lunch while waiting for others. made it on time. headed to Settlers. :)
had a few games cos we kept changing. after settlers, someone abandoned us for some other ppl even though the journey there was super far for her. you know who you are girl.

dinner time. we did something in return for that meal. by then, only left w s n n m me. went to gluttony(i think its spelt like this) cafe. the food there was nice and of reasonable price. however, it's super difficult to get to the place cause we walked one big round to look for it.

later c came back. went to a jap resturant to company her for dinner. no one served us the menu. when finally someone did, we realized that the food is super expensive. so, we sit up and leave the place. people outside was looking at us. lol.
later, slacked at Singapore River. chatted. been long since we chatted.
:)

Many told me: "it's easy to find someone you like but it's not easy to find one who you like, likes you too. cherish it."

foursome.

sweet uh.

can you see the contrast?

everyone's 1st piece.

i built this.

family photo.

2009-09-10T19:48:00.001+08:00

im going crazy.
had a nice phone to use and i dont want. rather changed back to my old phone. lol. hmmm, the function in my old phone is lots better. im starting to get a hang of it and i doubt im planning to change back. went dinner w sc twins sam yesterday. long time since we last met. they went k-box before that. asked me to join but was rejected. im super broke cant afford to wast money one stuffs like that. having gathering tomorrow with loves. miss them lots.

however, im miss someone more and more. received his sms yesterday. sigh, im sorry k? wanted to reply but i thought u didnt want me to. lol. so when i received your second text, i regretted for not replying the first one.

anyway, i quit my current job. after days of waiting, i decided to quit. thankfully, i managed to.

2009-09-08T13:28:00.003+08:00

IT'S HOLIDAY!

but, im busy with stuffs. and i dont know when im starting work. it's so boring to be at home. SPCO went china yesterday. I CANT GO cause mummy is worried about H1N1. now, i dont feel like working. cause im only left w 3weeks. October ive promised to make time for friends. but im super broke can.

2009-09-03T00:04:00.002+08:00

i miss everyone now. went tampines 1 to take a look at my workplace. sigh. there's only one pushcart there can. at level 1. the toilet is near by. the rest, super far. so how am i going to but my food? i need to close the shop and open it when i come back. lol. think i better pack food there. :D

anyone who is nice enough, buy me meal uh. :) reached there at about 2.30pm. take a look at the cart, and the cart at t1 is not 2-in-love. it's sweet&causal. :) selling new stuffs and some old things as well. couple stuffs are still selling but at cart, 2-in-love. these cart are currently opened at bugis. soon, jurong point will have one. wisma and illuma bridge there.

chatted w leely, my boss. 4pm, xinyi is here. companied her till off work. the closing part is super difficult. sigh, new stuffs again. learning time. chatted longer and home. super tiring. and super irritated. and super worried. sigh. im happy to be able to work soon! :)

2009-09-01T22:38:00.004+08:00

if you love something let it go,
if it comes back to you it's yours,
if it doesnt, it never was.

:) exams over! three weeks of suffering. lol. and, just within these two weeks, ive watched 3movies. spent lots of $ on some many things. but, im not upset. still as happy! :D

out today. with someone and someone. i shall blogged who are they when the time comes. :D went shopping. but i didnt spend $ on clothes or useless stuffs. watched movie. a 'worth-money' movie, ORPHAN. horror show, NC16. proud of myself. i went home alone, take the lift alone, go toilet alone. not affected at all. lol. watch it, if you have not. it's not ghosty movie. :)

&&if you texted me and i did not reply, please let me know. cos, my phone has problem receiving sms-es. thanks.

photos taken last tue. :)

2009-08-26T23:09:00.008+08:00

our w besties. :)
breakfast at 11am at bugis w everyone except buddy. she need to do some settlement stuffs for daddy. had lunch instead of breakfast actually. i ate rice. -.- yay, for breakfast. lol. waited for buddy. when she arrived, i've eyed on a shoes and pouch. but i didnt buy. my aim is to buy tops. :)

shop around and headed for ticket booking. watched 'where got ghost?'. don really like the show. but it's funny. i kept laughing. :D someone say my 'laugh point' is low, thats why. tsk. anyway, wasnt a good show. but if you want to entertain yourself, try that movie. watched trailer final destination. wanted to watch! but it looks horrible. lol. and it's M18. tsk.

movie finished, shopping again. and ive spent money on 3polo tees and a blouse. tsk. i wont want to go shopping w besties again! now, lets see how much ive spent for the day;

breakfast+drink
ticket
fishball
food&drink for movie
bracelet
3polo tees
1blouse
2packet of lakerol
mos burger

yaya! ive found my lost bracelet at the shop, helen. lol, i lost it before my presentation and was super sad. :( now, ive buy a new one! didnt tell mummy. she wont allow me to buy another one if she knows i lost it. shhhh.... :D

Congrats me for spending so much today ya. :D hopefully, i can quickly save as much for future use. now, im super broke. don bother to ask me out ya till the end of my exams. :D booking still avaliable. :)

photos to be uploaded when ive received all from besties. :)

photos taken the passed few days.

2009-08-25T21:18:00.003+08:00

as promised, i will upload photos today. :)

have been out with my friends during the exam periods. movie with besties on Friday after our paper. supposed to watch 'where got ghost?', but buddy was sick. therefore, we changed to the proposal. super funny, we bought sushi and chips into the cinema. not supposed to. anyway, this is my 1st time sneaking in food can. movie finished, and we headed to safari (idk how to spell). photos! slacked till 8pm and we left. super tired. :(

It's Sunday.
went church in the morning. Esplanada. was super early. but was lost. therefore, im late. :) yay, im always lost nowadays. met up w spco. concert and dinner. slacked at mac after that and home sweet home. :)

im super lazy to blogged about the details. :D
&&blogger cant upload photos again. sorry!

2009-08-24T01:02:00.002+08:00

finally i can access blogger. have been a crazy week. :( study and slack. super slack. and now, im lost. don want to study. holiday mood is here. exam stress are gone for good. :D till now, papers are kind of manageable. i think. don expect myself to do super well. pass is kind of hopeful. :)

been out with classmates and spco. updates will be up when ive received all photos and of cos, when im free. booking is still avaliable. therefore, wanna ask me out? call me. book a time, a day. i will give you a confirmation. im only planning for clique gathering and no others. thank you. :)

ive fall. now, im back on my feet. thanks(you know who you are). :)

2009-08-17T07:39:00.005+08:00

Exactly an hour to my 1st paper.
im at concourse now. waiting for besties. daddy sent me to school today. i was worried that i would be late for my paper. :( yesterday ive been practicing autocad. sigh. worried. time myself. and ive spent 1hour45mins to finish whereby the paper is 4hours. lol, well, cos ive remembered all the steps and the practice is like the 2nd try of my coursework.

went back to school on saturday. helped christine wanqi chewping with autocad. theyre too worried about autocad that they forget how to do this and that. though i didnt really study much, but ive learnt while helping them. :) i was super late that day. overslept. have been lack the sleep since last mon. never like this feeling. :( hmmm, anyway, yay, i was late. we had lunch and study. :) stayed till 1900.

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been feeling moody yesterday. strawberries isnt cheering me up either. i didnt expect the day to come so fast. i don wish this to arrived so soon. it's like the very 1st day we met again after so long. all this while, i guess ive been thinking and expecting too much that it's become so difficult for me to let go.
goodbye..

2009-08-15T00:20:00.003+08:00

AFTER SO LONG, IVE A BREAK FROM:

1. throat infection,
2. tutorials,
3. presentation,
4. lack of sleep.

im going crazy soon, i guess. have been studying, staying up late, stay back in school to complete tutorials and projects. i know ppl are going to comment saying that tutorial need not hand up. BUT, for ABE, we need to hand up as it is graded. shagged. :(

however, it's all over! im now free from these stress. but exams are coming. my 1st paper, test, is mon. then wed, fri. after that a long break till 25th and i have my 1st exam paper. then break again till 31th. lol. this is so spread out. don like. cant really feel the pressure. :(

have been eating unhealthy food, mac. and my throat infection is coming and leaving, coming and leaving. i think something is wrong w my throat. lol. also, i love spicy food. therefore, it is a super difficult task for me to not take spicy food for more than 2days. ive tried that. :D wish me well k. byeeee.

2009-08-10T20:15:00.008+08:00

went AMK hub for haircut. but i forgot, that it don open on a public holiday. went walk walk instead. not feeling any better still. fever in the morning and throat infection too. now, im having slight cough. anyway, mummy buy me 2shorts and 2tees. at least ive got shorts for school now.

home for ndp. didnt managed to catch the full show. but at least i make it on time for the myth. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

movie on saturday. i know i should be resting. BUT, we booked the tickets the day before i was sick. cost me $13. wastage is a sin. :D
movie with SPCO. :) though, left with 6ppl in the end. but we still have lots of fun. i was kind of moodless cos i was sick. sorry. ive tried my best to do something. like, shooting eggkjun for being _ _ _ _ _. lol. :) i still have problem pronoucing his unique name. so, by spelling his name as eggk-jun, made my life happier. :)
had mian-feng (read in english). and Haagen-Dazs!
anyway, we watched UP in 3D.

i was sick on friday.

went to the clinic and was sort of lectured by the doctor. who accussed me of being irresponsible. :( i was framed! went to the clinic and the nurse asked me what is wrong. so i said i had throat infection. then she asked whether is it serious case. i said no. how would i know? lol.
answered honestly and was directed to the normal condition side. i took my queue number. sat down. and wait. finally, MY TURN. went in. and the doctor asked whats wrong. answered. then she said i should be in the serious case, without checking! finally, she checked. and gave me a mask. instructed me to wear it. i followed. but i still dunno how to wear a mask. lol. both side looks the same to me. :D

was given only 1day MC. not as serious. :)

2009-08-05T21:01:00.004+08:00

im in a state of dilemma.

how can i just survived without getting drowned?

guess its time for some slf-reflection.

had presentation on mon. it's IDEAS. we are suppose to "open" a shop of our own and present as a group. and my group "open" a chocolate shop! and we even made our own chocolates! cool uh. :D quite successful, though it was all last min work. however, my chocolate was quite distortion BUT ITS NICE! lol. and the best part was we created a blogshop. hopefully someone really order from us. cos classmates said our chocolates was nice! yeapsss.
visit us at; http://www.oursweettooth.blogspot.com/

went jurong point after school on tue. no tutorial! and as ive quit se, ive free time! shop for ping's boyf birthday present. went sasa for sooo long, trying different types of perfume and my nose nearly explode. lol. had coffee bean and try the perfume again. lol. then, we've bought a bag tag! :D everyone's carrying it though. but still, im loving it.

spco today. super fun! though NO ONE WAS THERE. CHRIS SICK, UNIQUE WENT FOR TALK, JIEYING SICK. sigh, ping also sick and was given a 6-days MC. lol. please, don pass me the gems for im still the healthier ones in my clique. lol. anyway, practice erhu and was kind of catching up now. ive memorized the fingurings. later, supposed to go home. but had dinner w seniors. funny kind, talking about childhoods and was super funny.

i was 'box' by my classmate when i was kindergarden. i admit it. lol.
home. i was guilty for not being able to go china trip and didnt attend full orchestra today. thats why ive to eat with them. and, im also going movie w them this sat. maybe. :)
i feel liked im home. :)

2009-08-01T00:49:00.008+08:00

TUE, i quit SPSE, violin. i really love violin. but seriously, i don think it's worth the time learning for half-an-hour every week only. paying 10bucks per term, though it's not expensive. it's not the money. but, how can i learn if i only attend half-an-hour? sigh.. moreover, it's on a tue. wed, i have SPCO and i really don want to quit that. so, not to stress myself, i quit.

THU, went autocad, and my autocad disappear from my desktop. try recovering the icon. apparently, i failed. im still a newbie in IT. seek help from some IT expert who did not solve my problem. instead he insist that my autocad is okay. went back for lecture and asked mdm tan. who don know how she can help. in the end, pingping went up w me. this time, a diferent IT expert helped.

he's really an expert.

FRI, had a performance today. sigh, im such a failure. cant even sight-read. and cant play well. anyway, performance was quite successful. hmmm, nothing much. i was too nervous. managed to find the keys but im not playing. like i say, im nervous. and i just cant play. overall, i enjoyed. had fun with the members. :))) <333

SPECIAL THANKS TO THOSE WHO HELPED ME WITH THE SCORES AND ENCOURAGINING ME. ASKING ME. THANKS. :)

AND TO MY BELOVED CLASSMATES. "SUPPORTING ME" ALWAYS. :D

2009-07-27T21:08:00.001+08:00

theres still error loading photos in blogger..

:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

2009-07-26T19:14:00.001+08:00

it has been a bad week.

had been reading books. no mood in completing tasks im suppose to do. how i wish theres really magic.

2009-07-23T13:50:00.001+08:00

super offended.

2009-07-20T14:48:00.005+08:00

:D

im having law tutorial now. had lecture in the morning but werent listening. feel guilty. :S

i need to study now!
and finish my homework as soon as ive received it.
no more slacking.

HP was a disappointing show. i expect something more. like more stunts and more details from the book. however, none was really emphasize. it's mostly on romances and jokes. nothing much. but still, i will still be supportive on watching the show. cos my favourite characters are in the show! :)

buddy and i bought a bag for ms yveline. and she bought the same type of bag too! lucky hers is of different design. or else,.. we buy the same bag too! so we will be carrying the same bag but of different design to school! thats kind of cool. cos most of us are carrying the same bag now! yepps. :))))

2009-07-14T22:26:00.004+08:00

hmmm. no sunshine.

im way behind time. i have not completely finished my ect tutorial. im starting to be lazy in everything. ive stopped studying. last night, i requested to stop playing erhu and jump to cello in spco. ive find no passion in it now. everything seems to be not as interesting. gosh, i really have to do something about it..

2009-07-13T16:05:00.004+08:00

plurking is better than class now.
sigh.
sigh.
sigh.
sigh.

im super bored. NO building material today. and it's the first lesson of the day, 8.30am. when we were about to reach class, we saw the 24 ppl. chewping yveline me then realized that lesson was cancelled. sigh. should have sleep later.

anway, headed to concourse and had my ect drawing done. and it's law time. we've changed our law lecturer. :( lesson is so much slower and boring now. find no interest in law now. how? sigh. after law, had lunch and law tutorial again. it's much better. at least ive learnt something. and now, im having ideas. waste of time. NOT cos of the lecturer. but its the module. with no project in this module, lesson is super waste of time. now we are listening to classmates' presentation. but most of them are not listen. in fact, its the whole class.

i cant help but keep sighing these few days. sunshine is gone. life's so much meaningless the next few weeks.

2009-07-12T20:06:00.003+08:00

IM DOOMED.

went church today. overslept. today i had a fruitful day. helped out w the slides. this is considered my 1st time doing it. and lydia framed jessie for forcing me to do that. seriously, its a stressful experience. lol. but i would love to try that again if they need help. had sermon about being the overcomers and lesson about how to show christain love in social environment.

went grandaunt's house for family gathering and there is no youth at all. i was bored. and fell asleep. :P after awhile, the adults played a MJ dvd and we watched. he's a real talent. looking at his dance steps(though most are repeated ones), im truely impressed w it.

byeeeeee. tutorial time. :)

2009-07-11T17:37:00.008+08:00

"LOVE is such a werid thing. when you are single, you get nothing out of it.
when you are attached, you are getting yourself into troubles. when you are
married, life is complete."

oh, this quote is by me. idk whether anyone said that. but, seriously, i wrote it myself. :D

attended Sabrina's wedding today! Congratulations! anyway, she's my biao yi (aunt). and she's only 21. no wedding dinner. instead, we had wedding lunch. cool uh. woke up super early to attend her wedding. super nervous and super happy. had worship and vows. then lunch.

are all girls so pretty during their wedding days? im so envy and happy for her. still, i never thought of having mine so soon. though i want to marry at about 20. lol.

and yay, i changed my blogskin. finally found one that is simple enough. had been searching for one. and sorry, cos my blogskin is kind of like chewping's. don mind girl? if mind, let me know ya? :)

time to go.

2009-07-10T21:00:00.009+08:00

im not from china.
im super blur.
im super skinny.

life's getting messer for VALERIE. so many tutorials can. but it's getting MORE EXCITING.
with life that busy, i have no time for any other thing. HOWEVER, i don want to quit my cca. i don want to slim down. maybe this is my turning point in life uh. lol. ive been struggling these few days, thinking whether i should quit one of my ccas. idk either. i love both. and i missed both this week cos of tight schedule. and im guilty of that. so ive set myself with new resolution. which is:

ive to make time.
ive to eat more.
ive to work more.

with life so busy, im happy still. cos life for VALERIE is still super fun. with great friends around. and
encouraging family with me.

tmr i need to wake up super early.

goodnight. :)

2009-06-28T19:30:00.008+08:00

FINALLY

i've the time to blog. been super busy these few days. supposed to meet up the co gang and babes. but last min i cant turn up. sorry. been quite out w the youths in church. :)

FRI

supposed to meet co clique for dinner at chomp chomp. planned everything but in the end, i cant go. went uncle clarence's house for a send-off gathering for kahwee jie jie to India and East Asia for a Disciple training School.

however, in the afternoon, i met wq shopping! yes, the thought of shopping is exciting. but the trip was quite boring. i seriously realised singapore is super small now. we had no idea to go where shop can. everywhere is so boring now. so we went central instead. nothing much there. the clothes sold are quite commonly sold outside and the price are no as cheap can. THOUGH IT'S GSS now. everywhere is only having CLEARANCE SALES INSTEAD. tsk. and movie had super long queue.

after shopping, we hang around mac. and waited for her honey. headed to clementi and took a bus to uncle clarence house. was quite late. thought everyone will be waiting for me. IN THE END, when i reached there, i was the 1st. uncle clarence and auntie geok fong was not home. neither was jeremy. jessie just reached home. settle down, trying the helped w the puzzle that was half done by jeremy and auntie. but it was seriously quite difficult. gave up after lydia junmay and kahwee jie jie reached. played cards. and everyone is home. :)

STEAMBOAT. and it's seriously a very good fellowship time. we chatted. and i've changed quite a few seats. after the steamboat feast, we had DURIAN. now is kind of the durian season and i said durian are fattening. =.= yay, the girls said im super skinny. lol. i didnt eat the durian still, cos im kind of full and durian are quite heaty for the weather now. so gave up. chatted and was laughing out loud. happy. :)

home was kind of easy for me. cos there's a direct bus to uncle clarence's house! but the journey is super long. about 1hour. but i reached home in about 45mins including from compass which is fast. cos there's no jam.

SAT

woke up at 10.30am. went fulleton hotel for rehearsal. Sabrine biao yi's wedding is coming! and i will ushering. biao yi came and fetched me at 12pm but i was not ready cos she said 12.30pm she will reached. headed for lunch at NAFA area. then to the hotel. when we were about to leave NAFA, cousin vomited on her dress. no choice, kids are like that, they dunno when they will vomit. so we went to the toilet WASHED IT AND DRY IT. then to the hotel. we were early still. reached at 2.30pm when the meeting time is about 3pm.

everyone was late. and the hotel was even later. we only managed to start rehearsal at 4.30pm. during the waiting time, no water too. and we were having short fellowship w one another. talked non-stop. lol. till finally. pastor chua was there and he cant reconginzed me. jeremy was having a flu and spreading the gems around. still say i have flu too. in which i dont. dunno did he put his chopstick in the steamboat on fri night or not. think he did. lol.

rehearsal was super confusing. we prayed 1st then rehearsal. Sabrina was kind of frustrated. she's fine. pray that she don get tpp stressed up. :) finished rehearsal. dinner at city hall. in some dim sum shop with family. home.

SUN

woke up super early. 7.30am. when i reached church, worship just started. phew at last. after service, chatted a little and had sunday school.

we will finish 1peter 1-5 by the coming months.

WE THINK. ya, uncle clarence made us said that. but I BELIEVE WE WILL. and we will be at chapter 3 next week. though it's self-study next week.

uncle clarence and family will be in Hongkong next week to the 9 july. hopefully they will be back safely. i will pray. :) and will attend Sabrina's wedding too. and thank uncle clarence for the songs he saved for me. :)

after sunday school, had lunch with jie jies at west mall. and coffee as well. did translation from english to chinese for jie jie mc. jie jies then sent me to compass. walked around cos i need to find dress for the wedding and heels. usher is the 1st person the relatives are going to see. and those are my relatives! and friends!

walk. walk. walk.

nothing caught my eye then finally willing to pack dinner home for daddy grandpa bro. then i found out that i lost my ezlink card, i/c, school i/d. lol. walked around to look for it. till, i realized that my mp3 was gone too. by then i was in the police station. and i've sort of made a report just that i have not sign the paper. called jethro to asked him whether he's home and asked him he saw my things in the paper bag i returned him. cos i put it inside.

it's still not verified that i left it in the bag cos he's not home. but i remembered i put it inside. lol, so i walked back. sorry, to made so many ppl worried. special thanks to jennifer jie jie, uncle clarence, choor he jie jie, kahwee jie jie, jethro. including my mum and dad cos they are worried sick. lol. and im super blur,

blur will be my middle name now instead of idiot.

2009-06-22T13:37:00.006+08:00

6.30AM

the alarm rang. super early. woke up. bath. made my own breakfast and headed to church. proud of myself. i took a bus to church from clementi. i thought i will board the wrong one.

i was late. but worship starts late. so im consider early.

later brother clarence had a testimony. he read what we have written on our reflection and im super paiseh. my english was the worse. :( after everything has ended, almost everyone had a look at the pic we took during the camp. lots of ugly ones. and quite a few super zoomed in pic of brother clarence. some suggested to put it in church.

supposed to join jeremy and family for lunch then to west coast but, went home instead cos i didnt bring extra clothes for the west coast trip. went home. lunch. tongkang station. had a ride to west coast.

the trip there is SUPER CONFUSING. there's a west coast loop and west coast highway, west coast drive, west coast road. and japanese school and taglin sec. so we keep turning around. i cant help much cos it has been years since my last trip to west coast.

FINALLY,

after so many rounds around the loop, we reached west coast park. we look here and there, but no tentage. suet mee ah yi suggested to call brother clarence but he wont ans the phone. so called jeremy. like father like son, both didnt ans the phone. lol.

found the tentage, settle down and was told to join in the games, im wearing pumps not sport shoe!

games. bbq.

sometime later, we have a surprise guest.

JESSIE.

she's back from LONDON for holiday. and she will be studying in uni next year. she's of the same age as me. and jeremy, her bro, is going back to england this year, aug for further studies. rich.

super envy. were chatting non-stop. till i have to go. anyway, couple tee w jeremy who is a colour blind. cos he said bernice also wearing red which is orange. lol. anyway, we are not exactly couple-ing. he was wearing red and white. im wearing completely red. uncle joseph also wearing white red.

had a long day. tired. home at last.

we nearly lost our way home. i was not the one driving. lol.

2009-06-17T22:35:00.004+08:00

SPCO
today.

i was super nervous. till i have no appetite. tsk. so unique helped me finish my cup corn. dunno whats happening. anyway, yay, lesson was super long. and there's so many things to catch up. i've recieved my very 1st score since i joined co. tsk. TAI YANG. difficult. and we started practicing on the difficult part. indeed it's challenging. sort of caught hold of what we are learning. lesson finished. had dinner w unique bernard weijie jieying ruiping and two seniors. which i cant remember their names. lol. anyway,
BERNARD PUT BRACES!
he cant speak too much seriously! so funny.

chat and home.

2009-06-16T16:36:00.008+08:00

Im back!

yup, finally. i know everyone miss me. RIGHT? s said she miss me! thats a nightmare. lol. anyway been to camping the past weeks. and had exams before vacation starts.

1/06/09-04/06/09
exams' freaking me up. idk whether will i do well. but i know i did really tried my best. so, i only can hope for the best. sometimes when paper turns out to be as easy as you thought, you don usually do well. this is for my case. yay, the paper was easy, for some. and this freaked me up.

05/06/09&07/06/09
after exams, when out w s. shop w her and i buy something. i swear i wont buy a single thing but i broke my promise. :( anyway, i didnt waste my $. i spent $ on a shirt, two belts.
think i should eat less and play less.
like that i will have ton of $ to spend.

08/06/09
went badminton w s s g. its been long since my last badminton game.

seriously, i should do some exercise
OR
i will grow fatter.

lol. well, as usually, EVERYONE WAS LATE. cancelled it. and finally s woke up and sort of insist of playing badminton. so we went badminton again. after that, lunch at hougang mall. to my home after that. rented a few DVDs. supposed to watch at my house. but in the end, s was very late and sam have to go. so we managed to watch awhile. awhile later, z s also leaving for movie.

09/06/09&10/06/09
SPCO camp.
LOVE IT. it was fun. but i missed some parts cos i went SE practice. had ice-breakers games, wako. i was the unlucky one. or can say i was too blur. called for the 1st time. and i seriously didnt hear my name. i swear. so i was beaten like that. when i was sort of the beater, i don know who is who can. so i just walk around and asked around till i heard someone i know. lol. then, sometime later. i was beaten again.
this time i not sure why either.
lol. and yay, i still left w one chance lah. and my last chance was SABOTAGED. they wispered my name can. tsk.
like that, i need to do forfeit.

went SE. back for lunch and SE again. SE ended, went back. games started. MONOPOLY around SP. not really around. but across. we went to MLT1 and back to business block. then back to BE area and back again. so we were like walking here and there throughout the game. and lots of running. indeed it's monopoly. my group quite unlucky cos
Brenard keep taxing us.

after monoploy, had dinner. angels&idiot. this game is super scary can. not as scary as night walk. but very exciting. we were running around the school FOR OUR LIVES. SP is divided into 4 areas. each area got angels and idiots. angels will give light sticks and idiots will take away our light sticks. during certain time of the night, the angels will become idiot and the area will be blocked but still can go unless you don mind letting idiots to take the light sticks. lol.
yay, i was running in slipper can.
no time to change. so i run till my leg got blister. :( scary game. being chased by angels which are about to become idiots in 5 minutes, ekjun&chenying. chenying scared us when we were walking around and he was an angel. =.= when we realized that, this chopstick ran super fast can. and was gone. game ended. shower. movie. watch love guru. funny show. but i was super tired. so not in much mood to finish the show. sleep.

second day, had treasure hunt which is super difficult. walked around the SP and cant really solve the problems. so we walked around SP. join group and sort of solve the problems together. treasure hunt nothing much. made our minds worked a little. later captains ball. i think performing arts likes captains ball alot. lol. anyway, yay, captains ball and our group sort of won in the the 1st match. then lose the second round. too tired.
BREAK CAMP.
home.

11/06/09-14/06/09
LIFEgame.
in genting higland. NOT LOW AT ALL. we joined singapore life church for the camp. their church went camping together in malaysia. the youth, aged up to 30 went to the highland for LIFEgame. and others went some other place for their camp, mainly elderly. anyway, we are not allowed to say what happen during the LIFEgame.
i've learnt to studies hard.
learnt about eternal life and of cos get to know more friends. seriously, i feel like i've been reborn or something. lol. sounds weird. but yay, i will be faithful. and learnt how to have a eternal life. and im thinking of serving in church now. had lots of fun w other youths in my church though there's only me berince lydia junmay deborah gabriel ben richard brother-clarence. anyway,
the service there is in chinese!
so when we sort of know, we were super worried. comparing our olevels chinese results. i was not the best though they thought my chinese should be super okay. i only got b4. lydia had a2 can. lol. most of the ppl there are from the chinese service. but the LIFEgame was in english. there's always a translator. to translate the meaning. so it's sort of a win-win case.
the worse part of the camp was that we didnt bring any long pants. so we were super cold. especially after shower. i only bring one track pants. lydia and jumay bring fbt only. berince still bring some three-quarter pants and longer shorts. lol. but what i have was short of enough for me. i had a jacket and a windbreaker. so i lent my jacket to junmay. which she said its super tight for her cos i was too skinny. lol,
i promised i will eat more from then.
the last night, the few of us stayed till late night, 4am. played games. had frisbee at night. then monkey. after that we had true or dare. then we shared our shocking things in life. later we played teambuilding games. and tooki tooki! later we had cheat and i was sleeping. when i woke up, everyone said i was super high. sleep. everyone seems to like tooki game alot. especially gabriel. cos he tooki to junmay and deborah when they went to wash their hands during breakfast.
BREAK CAMP.
took a super long journey home. and we were super tired. so not much energy to play games in the bus. but we talked lots. reached malaysia checkpoint at about 10pm. then to woodlands checkpoint at about 10.30 to 11. took a cab home and reached home at 12am.

more pictures can be found in facebook. :)

2009-05-25T15:07:00.007+08:00

Freaking tried.
SPSE CAMP 22/05/09-24/05/09

Day 1.

supposed to meet loves for mag's birthday celebration but had to go camp. tsk. sorry, girl. :) anyway, the start of the camp is always boring. kelsey and friend company me to the spse camp registration and i made my 1st friend there, unique. she is also wenchuan and huixuan's friend. what a small world. staying near hougang so i got company home! put our bags and had ice-breakers. after a few games, get to know more ppl.

gouping- and i'm in 3! energizer.

NIGHT WALK.

had movie, coming soon. but i didnt watch. scared. after the movie, had storys about sp. yay, which school don have horror storys to share? LOL. anyway, ya, it freaked me up. finished. i didnt scream. short "ah" and shocked. thats all. I'M BRAVE!

sleep at 4am.

Day 2.

wake up for breakfast. exchange numbers with friends.

CHINESE GARDEN.

game, amazing race. we were like sweating like mad. as the weather was super hot and we are super tiring after a long day. finally, had lunch and free time. weather was finally cooler and it's going to rain. so, we toot toot train back to the mrt station and ya, had dance to practice on. after that, dinner, practice and showcase from the seniors. NICE! lol. i still love violin more. had a chance to see see and touch the instruments. :)

CAMP FIRE

well, no fire. had dance songs cheer games. and thats how we spent our last nice in the camp.

sleep at 1am.

Day 3.

wake up for breakfast.

CAPTAINS BALL

to my surprise, most of my group mates dunno how to play. teach them. game. lost. the ball hit my head, as always. rest. see other group play. free time. prize presentation. my group had the best cheer. group photos. break camp. home w new friends. took a longer route home. chat. play.

home at 2pm.

2009-05-17T20:11:00.006+08:00

LIFE IS NEVER SATISFYING!

I MISS SUKCHUN.

I MISS CAROLINE.

I MISS ZOE.

I MISS TWINS.

I MISS MAG.

I MISS GRACE.

I MISS _ _ _ _.

wont be meeting those girls, sorry. having camp this week. no time planning one this week. don miss me! cos i know i miss you guys more! <<<<333333

camp is coming. yay! i miss camp. last camp was sec1 orientation camp. never gotten forget that. realized time flies. i am going 18, 19, 20, graduate from poly then maybe work/uni. growing older. i miss every part of my life. i miss the past. i want to make it better. tsk. just a wish. lol.

anyway, had gathering w co gang last fri. fun. cos it has been long since i last met them. had lots of crapping here and there. and yay, i miss crapping. please! we are lame, so what?! i just love the way it is. miss laughing out loud. i really miss 4e1. sigh.