OMG!

i spent money again. tsk. irritated w myself. spent on 2books. wanna get the top but it's too expensive. therefore i dropped the idea. haha! secretly took a photo of it in the fitting room. cause i love it a lot! :(

Dread!

i miss my aunt. went for the funeral and i cant help much. didnt take joss sticks. didnt pray. feeling rather out-of-place. and guilty. as i wasnt that close to her when she was around. not that she's gone, i didnt even do the basics. sigh. still, im forgiven as everyone in my family knows that im a christian believer. sometimes, i have thoughts of just being a free thinker. isnt this better? i can believe all religion and do whatever i want. sigh. still considering. funeral was super bad. cause ive been crying. when i met my aunts and uncles and grandparents. everyone telling me that she's gone and how she was like when she was around. life without her will be tough for my grandparents. then, when i get to see her body, i cried even more. seeing her lying in th coffin, motionless with stitches that reminds me of curry puff. and i really miss her. she was pale, but she was not sad. she seems rather comfortable. therefore, i get it. i know why she wants to choose this way. she feel happier. though she left us. everyone will never forget her loving smile and kindness. :)

Camp prep today.

supposed to meet 1000. but almost everyone was late. lol. start at 1100? i think. well, i wasnt really sure w all the games. rx and me was like thinking different things. talking about different things. lol. we are not of same mind though. finally, finished. we started to have a mini meeting at stage@moberly. later we start playing game till 1900. dinner at holland v. took the wrong bus. everyone was hungry. in the end, we took a cab and eat NYDC. expensive. but worth the money. :D love the mango tango float. :) home.

OMG!

i spent money again. tsk. irritated w myself. spent on 2books. wanna get the top but it's too expensive. therefore i dropped the idea. haha! secretly took a photo of it in the fitting room. cause i love it a lot! :(

Dread!

i miss my aunt. went for the funeral and i cant help much. didnt take joss sticks. didnt pray. feeling rather out-of-place. and guilty. as i wasnt that close to her when she was around. not that she's gone, i didnt even do the basics. sigh. still, im forgiven as everyone in my family knows that im a christian believer. sometimes, i have thoughts of just being a free thinker. isnt this better? i can believe all religion and do whatever i want. sigh. still considering. funeral was super bad. cause ive been crying. when i met my aunts and uncles and grandparents. everyone telling me that she's gone and how she was like when she was around. life without her will be tough for my grandparents. then, when i get to see her body, i cried even more. seeing her lying in th coffin, motionless with stitches that reminds me of curry puff. and i really miss her. she was pale, but she was not sad. she seems rather comfortable. therefore, i get it. i know why she wants to choose this way. she feel happier. though she left us. everyone will never forget her loving smile and kindness. :)

Camp prep today.

supposed to meet 1000. but almost everyone was late. lol. start at 1100? i think. well, i wasnt really sure w all the games. rx and me was like thinking different things. talking about different things. lol. we are not of same mind though. finally, finished. we started to have a mini meeting at stage@moberly. later we start playing game till 1900. dinner at holland v. took the wrong bus. everyone was hungry. in the end, we took a cab and eat NYDC. expensive. but worth the money. :D love the mango tango float. :) home.