Forgotten.
is it me? ive been asking myself, am i the one w problems? seriously, ive tried my best of the best. but seems like it's not appreciated. it's like my efforts are being drained off. still, i must say im determined? comeon, if you have a problem, tell me alright? i hate that stupid irritating ridculous childish sensitive nonsensical feeling. i hate that. i hate myself too. yucks.
SPCO.
practice at 1500. but started late. practice. dinner, subway. full orchestra practice. zy is super idiotic? lol. keep saying and acting like an idiot. lol. but i must say, it's entertaining. attended only half of the orchestra practice. cause seriously, i lost all my confidence. i dont have the confidence i used to have. been telling myself to not be so freaky. but still, it does not work well. i think i should do something about myself. lol. i cant go on like this. and deteroriating is not a good thing to talk about. maybe this is not the right choice for me? lol.
But, im not gotten give up. i used to say:
'Nothing is impossible unless you give up.'
maybe i should paste that on the side of my bed as a motivation to not just co but studies as well. then i might be able to make it through?
after practice, supposed to supper w SPCO. but i didnt join them. wanted to go home. but met s and companied her for supper. in the end, i ate somethingt too. a plus point to me? cause it has been awhile since i feel hungry? lol. hmm, chatted and we lose track of time. i nearly missed the last train, not just MRT but LRT as well. luck is on my side uh. lol. i managed to board the last train home. :)
With c s z and the other girls, my life seems to change so much. w/o them, i just dont have the motivation in everything i do. wasnt cause of them, i wont be able to suddenly do well in my studies. seriously, it's not easy for a NA student to promote to express, taking triple science, double maths, history as humantities. thinking about how i made it through it's really amazing. im grateful to have such friends around me. i really missed those time. in skco, im really grateful too to have such friends around, telling me and guiding me. it's really a disgrace about what ive done to disappoint them when i didnt come off with a good decision which benefits everyone in the orchestra.
P/S: L.O.V.E.S, dont be too touched about what ive said uh. :D Readers, got questions must ask me. im a honest person. :)
valerie: im eighteen years old.
eleven march.
singapore polytechnic.
school of ABE.
erhu, SPCO.
sanguine. melancholy.
love school.
owns the world loveliest smile.
byeeeeeeeeeeee!
1:33 AM Thursday, October 1, 2009
Forgotten.
is it me? ive been asking myself, am i the one w problems? seriously, ive tried my best of the best. but seems like it's not appreciated. it's like my efforts are being drained off. still, i must say im determined? comeon, if you have a problem, tell me alright? i hate that stupid irritating ridculous childish sensitive nonsensical feeling. i hate that. i hate myself too. yucks.
SPCO.
practice at 1500. but started late. practice. dinner, subway. full orchestra practice. zy is super idiotic? lol. keep saying and acting like an idiot. lol. but i must say, it's entertaining. attended only half of the orchestra practice. cause seriously, i lost all my confidence. i dont have the confidence i used to have. been telling myself to not be so freaky. but still, it does not work well. i think i should do something about myself. lol. i cant go on like this. and deteroriating is not a good thing to talk about. maybe this is not the right choice for me? lol.
But, im not gotten give up. i used to say:
'Nothing is impossible unless you give up.'
maybe i should paste that on the side of my bed as a motivation to not just co but studies as well. then i might be able to make it through?
after practice, supposed to supper w SPCO. but i didnt join them. wanted to go home. but met s and companied her for supper. in the end, i ate somethingt too. a plus point to me? cause it has been awhile since i feel hungry? lol. hmm, chatted and we lose track of time. i nearly missed the last train, not just MRT but LRT as well. luck is on my side uh. lol. i managed to board the last train home. :)
With c s z and the other girls, my life seems to change so much. w/o them, i just dont have the motivation in everything i do. wasnt cause of them, i wont be able to suddenly do well in my studies. seriously, it's not easy for a NA student to promote to express, taking triple science, double maths, history as humantities. thinking about how i made it through it's really amazing. im grateful to have such friends around me. i really missed those time. in skco, im really grateful too to have such friends around, telling me and guiding me. it's really a disgrace about what ive done to disappoint them when i didnt come off with a good decision which benefits everyone in the orchestra.
P/S: L.O.V.E.S, dont be too touched about what ive said uh. :D Readers, got questions must ask me. im a honest person. :)
